Why Don't I Sleep?

[Olinick]

Here it is a Sunday night or should I say, Monday morning at 1:15. I know I should be in bed because I have to get up for work at 5:30 but once again I am still up. It isn't that I can't sleep, if I give myself the chance to sleep I will. Taking medication to sleep isn't the problem, I simply don't go to bed. Does anyone else have this issue? Staying up half the night only makes the anxiety and depression worse.

[Hidden]

I do. I don’t work so I am able to just sit up. When I was in school though and couldn’t sleep I would be upset because I worried I wouldn’t be able to perform my school work. It’s a horrible feeling. I wish I could offer helpful advice, but know I suffer with you. May we both find peace and sleep.

[Olinick in reply to Hidden]

Thanks. At least I know I am not the only one crazy enough to sit up half the night. I have often thought it has to do with the nightmares I have. Not that I have as many now but as a child I often had them and then when I had a traumatic event happen I had horrible nightmares. That was when I started to not go to sleep. It was easier to stay awake as long as possible so that when I did finally fall asleep the nightmares didn't happen. Now I just want to be able to go to bed so that I can be productive the next day. I feel like I am missing life.

[Hidden in reply to Olinick]

I can relate to that. Here it is 2:36 in the morning and I am wide awake. Nothing I can do to make myself sleep. I figure I would just reply on here and be productive in some form to maybe benefit my fellow human beings. I miss a lot by waking up late.