I can't sleep normally

[Against_the_current]

The only time I'm sleepy and sleep long is during the day. I went to sleep tonight early like 9pm and woke up at 4am. I always wake up at 4am when i try to go to sleep early. I was really tired because last night I didn't sleep at all, i fell asleep as usual around 8am and had to wake up at 2pm to catch a bus home. Thought home would be better but still woke up at 4am. I just not only was tired but i didn't want to watch mom drink nor was i in condition to help sister with homework (my brain is blank i swear) and i could barely stay awake so i fell asleep thinking I'm gonna wake up at a reasonable time. I probably need to talk this out with a therapist but my therapist only analyses me more and digs till i have a mental breakdown. Is that normal?

[peacefulandcalm]

stress, ptsd, trauma, difficulties from past, present and anxiety about everything, yeah, all take toll on our sleep sometimes it seems....

out of the blue, sleepless nights, then messed up for the next day.

I experience it. With all those things going on, I kind of see why it happens...

have you tried melatonin? or natural sleep aid you can get at a store?

You are doing your best, doing a very good job in crazy circumstances- I understand this very well....do what feels the best thing at the time....you are really funny too....sending a hug xx

[SoporRose in reply to peacefulandcalm]

All that peacefulandcalm writes is true. It cal also take time to re-adjust to a place. shifting back and forth between your accommodation and your mom's apartment may mean that you are having to re-acclimate to different environments a couple times a week. I hope you find a way to get some rest.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Yeah. I thought i would be better here. I feel homeless 😭

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

This is rough time, having to go back and forth. It sounds as if that's what you need to do for now, but I hope after you finish grad school you'll be able to stay in one place for some time, whether it's your own place or, if you still need support and care from your mom, at her apartment. With luck, you'll be able to parlay your degree into work or an internship that will give your days more structure and joy. Knowing how well you do in school, I think you'll be able to find a position fairly easily. Even if the first job you're offered isn't ideal, you'll can use it as a stepping stone. Please hang in there. There are better days to come.

[Against_the_current in reply to peacefulandcalm]

Thank you, i couldn't describe it better, you understand me. I'm crying and hugging you, i really need it. I do 😭🫂

[Against_the_current]

Thank you, didn't know there was a sleep side. Oh now i got a sleep disorder, I'm not healing, I'm only getting worse. And i can't find a proper therapist

[Against_the_current]

Alright

[Against_the_current]

Thank you

[Against_the_current]

I was just going to look around

[LadyZen]

I use to break down a lot during therapy. I finally ended going on medication after a few months of therapy when I realized how grueling the healing process was on me. It was a tremendous amount of unbearable pain. Scars being ripped left and right.