I’m Exhausted

[Johannys]

I had a horrible night I could not stop crying, I was left without tears and still my chest hurt. I tried to sleep but every time I was falling asleep my heart was accelerating. I do not know what to do anymore, I'm exhausted. I go to the psychologist, I go to the psychiatrist and I take medication and even then I can not control myself. Please tell me this will not be forever. 😔

[Hidden]

Hello Johannes!

This will not last forever! I promise! I have trouble sleeping too for an unknown reason, but when I’m exhausted and feel like my heart is racing, I tell myself that I’m ok and that I’m just having a little bout of anxiety. I play some romantic period classical piano music and try to relax. Classical music isn’t my favorite genre, but it calms me down. Relaxing is work! What an oxymoron, huh?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I didn’t finish!! Oops! Anyway, try to rid your mind of negative thoughts. Ruminating is sooo not helpful. It will keep you up at night. Try to stay positive! Thinking of you!

[Johannys in reply to Hidden]

Thank you very much, it's nice to see someone who goes through your situation thinks of you. You have been very helpful, it is difficult to find someone who really understands what you are going through, I've been a year with this and it has been a long way and I hope it ends very soon. Thank you very much, my thoughts are with you.♥️

[Hidden in reply to Johannys]

Thank you and you’re very welcome ☺️

[hunter4ransom]

Is this a new episode or something you have battled for awhile? I totally understand and can relate to that sick feeling that just won’t leave. Having the stomach flu or a broken bone would be better than this horrid pain we endure. I awake every morning with feelings you are having at night. You aren’t alone and it will ago away. These negative thoughts unrealistic feelings of doom don’t last forever although some days they like to hang on a little too long. Try to remind yourself that they are just thoughts and your body’s reaction to them. You are safe and the darkness will end and you will feel better with the help of your doctors, support system, and time. Be patient and kind to yourself. It’s hard work battling depression and anxiety, but they can and will be defeated. Don’t give up. We are here for you.

[Johannys in reply to hunter4ransom]

I always try to keep a positive mind but sometimes it's really hard to do it. I've been fighting against this for a year and I hope it really ends soon. Thank you very much for your words, they have helped me not to feel alone in this battle. Thank you very much, a hug in the distance.♥️

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Johannys]

I’m also stuck with this thinking that I need it over now, cause in my opinion no matter what time it’s just toooooo long! I’m 20th month with it and also pray every day to have it away from me. But since I’m here on that forum, I start to think different!

First of all: it’s work to have it gone. Medication is one. Positive thinking! Wow! This seems to be a great helper but extremely difficult. Meditation, mindfulness, activities! I dream to go on a bike trip but never have a courage since I’m always so tired. One day I’m gonna do it!!! (I guess I should rather do it today, just now, and feel the pleasure of crossing borders). Praying helps me stay calm with no panic attack or even keeps my away from hysterical crying, I drop tears though and let myself feel so terribly sad, however there’s a difference between calm and hurt than exaggerated and mad in this sense of crying it so loud (... sorry, language barrier!).

I also let myself to tell the truth. So far here However I take baby steps in the real world too. Talking indeed helps.

Another part: I can’t take back the time, sadly! But you know what : this depression, pain, the causes of it, a year spend in bed, all my current problems, huge huge stress over things that scary me —-> that’s a bless! It’s wonderful!!! It’s like having a baby in the kindergarten that get sick all the time but eventually when it’s older has its immune system so strong that nothing can get through! It’s us: we are getting wiser and stronger each day. We learn to cope! We learn how to take care of ourselves. How to go forward!

I’m telling you girl, it’s great where are we now. It’s painful and tragic but it will bring us something so great and so good!

Stay strong! I’m so happy that you speak here. You’re gonna be so great and so better afterwards! Do not give up!!

[Johannys in reply to Orangeblossom85]

ohhh! Thank you very much for your words, you have made me feel less alone. Sometimes fighting with this is so difficult and just today I went to visit my psychologist and he told me that this would not last forever, that comforts me. I also pray every night, I will pray for you too Muchas️ Thank you very much for everything. Sorry if I have spelling mistakes, it's because my native language is Spanish.♥️♥️♥️

[Sillysausage234]

🙏

[Johannys in reply to Sillysausage234]

Thank you ☺️

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Johannys]

Your welcome ,wishing you well for the day.

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry you are going through this. I went through this for months, insomnia, exhaustion, panic attacks as I would fall asleep. First thing is getting sleep, so take a sleeping pill. A strong Ambien CR or Remeron will knock you out. Take time off work to get your sleep back and not stress about having to go to work. Get on an antidepressant that is sedating like Lexapro then you can scale back your sleep medication. Journal your feelings, listen to Douglas Bloch on YouTube, if you are inclined to pray do that!! Gather support from family and friends and your Higher Power. I’ve been where you are and it doesn’t last forever but you have to stay pro active and be willing to try new things, whatever works.

[Johannys in reply to Hidden]

Thank you very much, I try to keep a positive mind whenever I can, it is difficult to fight with this but I know I will be able to overcome it. You do not know how much I appreciate your words, it's good not to feel that you fight alone. I appreciate it a lot. I've been struggling with this for a year and I hope it ends soon, my doctor, my therapist and the pastor of my church have helped me a lot. God helps me and will continue to help me too. Thank you very much for your words. I will pray for you. ☺️♥️

[Hidden]

I’m having the EXACT same problem. I cry myself to sleep every night. I just started taking meds & I’ve been meditating before bed. I try to read a book. I’ve listened to some calming music, I even try to talk to a friend until I get sleepy... It doesn’t help. I have panic attack’s & I’m awake til sunrise. That’s when my body finally gives in & I sleep til noon. I can’t keep living like this either. I have to start gearing up to get myself back to work in a few weeks. I hope you feel better & get some good rest, girl. <3

[Johannys in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for sharing your story with me, we have to try to have a positive mind. We will both come out of this and we will be happy. you just have to have a lot of faith.♥️