Feeling lost & alone. No close friends to talk to, not family either. Those that even know, they say they understand, but in reality, they only understand intellectually, not emotionally. Plus, I'm pretty old, 62, so I'm really tired, of a lot of things, but especially dealing with this depression. I've been through a lot of therapy, but I'm afraid to go anymore because the last therapist, in the first session, told me I was selfish and overly dramatic, that other people have worse problems, etc.. and I realize that, but somehow, I still can't get over this feeling. I am on medication, it helps most of the time, but I still have spells, like now. I feel so alone. I'm tired of having to pay to have someone to talk to. I'm tired of having to totally suppress my feelings and pretend to be all bright shiny happy all the time, while having to accept everybody else's little whims and temper tantrums and moods. Anyway, there's way more I wish I could say, but that's enough for now.
Just depressed : Feeling lost & alone... - Anxiety and Depre...
People can be a real pain in the *ss. I like being alone.
I am sorry you are struggling. You are not alone. Everyone on this site is so understanding as we struggle too. We are here to love, support, encourage and care for one another. I am glad you shared on this site.
I have struggled with depression on and off for over 20 years. I have been on medication for most of that time too. I tried going off, but I would have another episode. I am glad the medication helps most of the time. Sounds like you have not found the right counselor for you. It took me years to find the right one, or even find the one that finally helped me have a break through. I eventually was healed from past issues, learned my triggers and how to deal with them. It has been over 2 years and I have had not struggled with depression. This group has a great online counseling program that may be helpful for you. bit.ly/2DS3v7S
I will be praying for you. Please stay in touch and let me know how you are doing. Hugs to you!