Need support to feel good about myself

[Malou67]

Don’t know where to start here... I wish there was a live group of people in my city or someone I could talk to without going bankrupt and just talk about myself. Cause really I am not that strange but I feel so strange. I’m new in this town and haven’t met anybody yet it’s been almost a year and I’m so lonely I’m totally depressed. Feel absolutely rejected and worthless

[gerg]

I like strange people. If you tell me a little more about your self I may have some input. What are some of your interests? Where are you at? You are accepted here and I hope that your negative feelings subside.

[Malou67 in reply to gerg]

Hi gerg thanks so much for reaching out. I love nature and animals. I feel free in the wild when there is no human structure. I think I feel weird in society. You have to fit in grrrr I hate that and there are so many rules...I have two dogs and I feel like I can not enjoy being with my dogs unless I’m in the boonies and I love it but I can’t always be in the boonies. Anyway I’m spreading out a bit my thoughts. It’s not all together I’m sorry. I like music arts and craft. I’m an artist in the my heart but not expressing it much because a lot of frustration and fear. And also I did give up a bit because I’m a bit extremist and if I can’t do something fully I’d rather not do it at all? Weird don’t know where I got that from. ... probably cauz I didn’t find a lucrative way to do this and or didn’t have enough time to put energy on my passions because was too busy working and stressed raising my child on my own... issues from my childhood did not have a good female model difficult to reprogram my thoughts... I’m a down to earth person at least I wanna be... I have traveled and I live in a very beautiful place mountain lake but I can’t find people to connect with... that makes me so sad... I’m the kind a bit hippie in my heart but not dressing like one and not into esoteric stuff but I am spiritual. I like all the organic foods and like to live to most natural way possible with what earth has to offer us. I have all these good values right and yet feels like something goes wrong I’m my brain. Im often so confused about life... don’t know what to say right now my mind is a little hyper, though I feel better than this aftetnoon... there is so much I could say... I’ll let you reply if you want to and maybe I can redirect this conversation... thanks for your time

[gerg in reply to Malou67]

You sound perfectly strange to me, don’t change a thing.

Actually I share many of your interests. This year I have been doing a lot of gardening, need any radishes? I fully understand wanting to be away from it all, I find my serenity in nature. People like me more than I like myself, so I have people around. I have some of the same confused thoughts that you do about where I belong. I don’t want anything, but I just can’t seem to get enough. Things were a lot worse and I have worked hard for change. I have learned to accept myself and my world as it is. I like so much about life and I keep those things as my focus.

That just made me think of a song, that I think is by Tom T. Hall, I like...

It is an oldie but goody.

[gerg in reply to gerg]

Well I was close, the song is called “I love” by Tom T. Hall, 1973.

[Malou67 in reply to gerg]

Thanks for your answer here. I feel like I have been doing so much better before and now I’m doing like crap because I wanted to change my before. I have lost confidence right now and I’m ashamed to tell other people that I am not well. Like when people ask THE question... So...! How do you like it there! How’s your new life... I’m embarrassed to say that my life sucks and that I’m not having fun. I feel so ridiculous. My biggest problem right now is I don’t get to meet people and I feel super lonely. I feel like I don’t matter.

Anyway hope you doing alright and life is treating you right.

[Madison10]

Hi,

We all get lonely, sometimes for long periods. Tell me a little about yourself or just anything you want to chat about

[Malou67 in reply to Madison10]

Hi Madison thank you so much for your reply. I feel lonely and my problem is I move a lot... looking for a good place to live. Not easy. I can’t settle I feel like I dont fit in. And i am a bit of an introvert so that doesn’t help. I’m a free spirit trapped in a society full of rules but mostly trapped in my own perception of myself. I wanna break free... how do I do that ?