Hi everyone. I am new here and really don’t know how to do this. All I know is that I need a people to talk to that understand what I am going through.
I have been battling what I think is depression. Not 100% sure but it’s that feeling of loneliness, worthlessness, not wanting to talk to anyone, feeling that I’m better off gone or hoping and praying that my life be taken away cause I can’t handle this feeling anymore.
I never used to feel this way. I think it started happening after I got married, ironically I am still married to the same man after 18 years. He’s an all around great guy to everyone around him except me. There are times he can be sweet but most of the time he can be condescending and just make me feel worthless.
I noticed that my moods would change after I married him. I became short tempered and irritable. Sometime I over react emotionally and people get turned off by it. I never used to be this way. I never used to be this unpleasant person. I believe in God but I just never felt that he loved me as much as the people around me. And I’m not blaming him. I just want the pain to go away. The loneliness and worthlessness.