Dreading Monday....

[Cb_23]

I have been out on leave from work for a couple of months. Monday I am suppose to go back as part time. My disability Dept keeps jacking with my paperwork and my boss says if I come

back Monday, it has to be a full day. I am so tired of having to fight my employer. My husband says to do what I need.

I am actually scared of Monday and going back. I could stay in my house forever and never leave. That’s all I want.

I am just so scared, I don’t know why. I have been at with this company for years. Anyone able to help me understand or help with coping skills?.

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Hi Cb_23!

I think that your fear of returning to work isn’t all that uncommon. I’m usually more than happy to return to work. It keeps my mind occupied and I can help someone. It also helps keep me sharp and in better shape. And last, but not least, we desperately need the money! Isolating at home may not be a good idea. If you’ve been there for years, you’ll fall right back into the groove. Does work cause you a lot of stress and feelings of being overwhelmed? Try to figure out why you’re fearful. A few jitters, ok, but being truly fearful probably deserves more thought. Staying in your home all the time would not be healthy and probably cause another whole set of problems! Face your fears! You’re stronger than you think!

[kateowp]

I totally understand where you are coming from! I was first diagnosed with depression as a kid because I dreaded going to school so much (it wasnt a bad place, I just didnt want to go out). When I am out of my routine it is always the worst for me.

I just started a new job and I am having a really hard time with the dreads. I dont want to go to work (or anything!) and wish I had never left my old job which was at least emotionally comfortable.

I get through it by reminding myself that it is "just" a feeling and that it will pass eventually- even though it feels like I will always be this way. I try and get through by identifying things that will help me feel better in the long run (doing the scary thing, making social contact, seeing a therapist, exercise, etc) and forcing myself to do them like medicine.

I also like to remind myself that in the past I have gotten through this feeling. A new job always puts me into a scared/depressed place for the first month but, if I show up and take care of myself even though I dont want to, the feeling slowly goes away. It just really really sucks getting through it.