Everything sucks

[Cb_23]

I work for a very large insurance company. I am trying to go back to work but my disability Dept is requesting the same documents that my doctor already filled out twice this week. My doctor is irate and refuses to do more paper work (I don’t blame her). This leaves me screwed. My doctor only wants me doing part time for a while, the disability Dept keeps requesting the same paperwork and my boss say if I come Monday it has to be a full day b/c disability hasn’t approved the part time.

I’m rambling. I’m just so damn pissed off and no one to help me figure this cluster out. I had to leave because of the anxiety and depression. I have a full 90 day bottle of ambien that could make this go away. But I can’t do that to my family.

[Orangeblossom85]

I don’t think ambien will help you. I’m only afraid that it will lock you inside your body and cause severe disability. Much worse than that we all suffer currently. I’ve been at the edge not once and I know the feeling. I would love the bad to finish and let me live easier, I don’t even care for happier, just easier.

Suicidal thought are really rough! They paralise thinking. Please try to stay strong and keep as hard as possible to beat thouse thoughts. Please! Share your story here, maybe we all can come up with solutions or ideas. Maybe you can gain some strength with us. I really really encourage you to give it a try.

[Willow91]

I think you need to contact HR as soon as possible. That sounds fishy to me.

[dee_bells]

Did your dr make copies? Can you get them? I agree something sounds fishy. I would try and follow the paper trail. Good luck! 🌺🌸🌺🌸🌺🌸

[Cb_23]

I did call HR today and that was joke. She had no idea what I was talking about. She said they have the paperwork (poof! its magic) and it is currently being reviewed. It can take 5-7 days for the review. I was wanting to go back to work Monday, but to following my doctors instructions. Which means working only 4 hours a day. I asked if I can go to work part time or wait till this is reviewed? She didn't know.

So I guess I will return to work Monday and do an 8 hour shift, since no one can figure this out.