Anyone......

I seriously feel like something is constantly wrong with me. I know I have a lot of people who are for me and I have people to talk to but it’s hard for me to speak out and say I need someone to just listen. I am in a dv relationship and I have severe depression I was admitted for a week last year and life has been going great as can be. Two days ago I started having the nightmares again of just people attacking me and me not being able to speak I wake up so depressed alone and empty. Today I found out that my aunts best friends husband hung himself and I felt sad for him Bc I knew the pain he must have suffered but I was also a little sad Bc my family started talking about depression and how sad it is and all that stuff but not once do they realize that I have depression also and they treat me badly. I feel like I’m weak and my job is to let people walk all over me I have no voice and i hate it . I’m constantly worried if my husband or my family are mad at me they all got into my head and I just need someone

[hevs90]

hi I guess I don't know how I feel at the moment, it all started when my bf had an anyersm that burst and was rushed to hospital on 6th April . he is now on the rehab ward but his cognitive side of the brain is gone an it's likely he will be that way for the rest of his life and not remember me or our kids or his family. I have no motivation to get up in the mornings so I have been staying up all night to make sure our children get to school on time. even when I do sleep I sleep nearly all full day.I hide my emotions from the kids and my family and hiss. I feel so lonely I have never lived on my own bc when I moved out of parents house I moved in with him and I feel like I have had just been left with two children even though there ours but that's what it feels like. if you wanna chat I'm here xx

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I would utilize my voice whether they like it or not! As a member of the family, you should have a voice. Try to be assertive (not aggressive) and don’t let them walk all over you to enhance your feelings of self-worth. You can do it! You will meet resistance, but forge ahead. I’m wishing for strength and a renewed sense of satisfaction for you. You are an equal with an opinion. It’s ok to verbalize how you feel. Sending you hugs!!

[foreverbeach11]

Hi natles314. I am sorry you are going through this. Have you considered getting help with your current relationship? Everyone deserves to be treated with respect. You are important and your opinion is important. Have you thought about talking to your family about your depression? If they don't know, they won't be able to help you get better. I know it is difficult for you now and I am hoping things get better. Don't give up.