Its horrible

[AmandaElise]

It sucks. Im always waiting for something to happened. Something or someone to fall from the sky. A gun to go off or a bomb to explode. Im always on alert all the time. Its exhausting. And im getting sick of my house.

[Hidden]

Have you seen a doctor about this?

[AmandaElise in reply to Hidden]

On and off for about 6 years. Ive had good experiences and some bad ones. But no one ever really got it. They just wanted to pump full of drugs. Ones that made me worse off

[Starrlight]

AmandaElise,

Sounds similar to what I go through. I am constantly thinking someone is choking. It could be a cough or sneeze or no sound at all and I will be so sure that someone is dying that I run to them to find out each time that everything is fine yet I am still constantly trying to save people from nothing. I don’t think people around me understand what it’s like.

I’m really sorry you have that impending doom on your mind. Yes being on alert all the time is exhausting for sure. I hope you will find a way, that we both, will find a way to relax and feel better soon. Best to you.

[AmandaElise in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you. Im trying. Im hoping hearing out other people's anxiety issues will give me more strength. I just want to live. But sometimes its like im not in control of what my body does. It gets frustrating but its safety at the same time.

[Starrlight in reply to AmandaElise]

Yup it helps to know we are not alone and that it can get better. Oh yeah not having control is rough. I’m trying to stop myself when I get the fear but so far I just have the need to check.

[AmandaElise in reply to Starrlight]

Your need to check is similar to my need to seek out escape plans. I had an incident last year, we went dorney and it was so packed i found myself mapping out an escape plan in case something happened. I was there for like half an hour before i basically ran to my car... have you been able to pin point when it started for you?

[Starrlight in reply to AmandaElise]

I do that too, look for escape just Incase. I think it’s a smart thing to do actually and to be aware of our surroundings.

[Starrlight in reply to AmandaElise]

I don’t know when or why it started for me. Does yours point to any particular event or reason?

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Im so sorry you go through this too Starrlight 😔 it sounds so awful and scary x prayers for you and anyone else going through this also 💕

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Hope for your understanding and kindness. 💕

[Hidden]

Aww my heart breaks for you .. that must be so awful 😔 i hope you’re able to get the professional help that you need xx