I feel defeated. Just need friends.

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I’m at an all time high with my panic disorder and anxiety. I’m always uptight. I can’t shake it! It’s making me feel like I’m losing my shit. My anxieties have anxieties. Petrified I’m going to drop dead. Was at the hospital last night. They basically looked at me like I was an alien. Fallen into slight depression and my days are filled with hurt and sadness when not anxious. I feel so hurt and sad for myself. Why did this happen to me? Life used to be wonderful in a sense of feeling normal. Living my life, not being run my anxiety in life. I’m so hurt I’m so sad. My family likes to remind me that they have a good life and that I am suffering. All medical check ups are good. Blood work, heart, etc. have lost 10 pounds in 5 days from throwing up and not having appetite to eat. I’m so hurt I’m so sad. I need someone. Never suicidal though. Know I will come through and crisis always passes but these down times are the darkest ever. They are the most hurtful things I’ve ever deal with.

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I'm so sorry you are feeling this way! It stinks like a dump doesn't it? Can you try to focus on something positive? Do you like music? Do something good for yourself, you deserve it!!! Peace for you!!! I'm here for you also!!! Big hugs!!! XXX