doing worse

[RcKitty]

so depressed, so anxious ,and also soagoraphobicis as I cannot even leave the house at all even though I need food... I feel my situation is hopeless despite the medication the therapy... I feel ...worse... I don't think I am gong to win this battle I am close to giving up I don't want to do this anymore!!!!!!!

[Grimreaper]

Rckitty

Order the food or grocery online .. if you feel u can’t go out.

Don’t lose hope .. I was also under depression and thought of giving up .. however life did take a turn towards brighter side and here I am .. doing all right .

[mdowning81]

RcKitty,

I am si sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. I am also really struggling with the depression and anxiety. It takes everything I have in me to leave the house and get to work. The one things that everyone keeps telling me is that the most important part of recovering is believing that it is possible. I'm getting to the point of not being able really believe this, but just keep trying to push through. When this all started I also "couldn't" leave the house just leaving the bed seemed monumental. For me the best thing to get out of this was making small goals. Some of these were things like go get a gallon of milk, it took me a lot to do bvb this but I figured that no matter how bad the feelings that came along I was only going to be in the store for a couple minutes max ti get this one item, then I slowly grew from there. Another thing I did was started timing when I would get my mail with when my neighbor got theirs, this exposed me to someone that I normally had no idea problem being around but for some reason feared and avoided. All I did to start was just acknowledge they were there with a wave or nod and slowly grew to being able to say hello then having a brief conversation. I have now have been able to return to work and yes it is incredibly difficult I spend a lot of my time focused on how I feel and feeling like I could cry at any minute, but I figure it has to be better than not being here and with time hopefully I start to feel a little better. If you ever want to talk feel free, I am on here in search of a support network that actually understands what it is like to deal with this. No one I have to talk to on a daily basis has dealt with this and they all just think "oh your at work you must be better" they dont understand that every day is a struggle and it is exhausting trying to just make it through the day pretending to hold it all together.

[ciley in reply to mdowning81]

the lack of understanding is still appalling, i think many are suffering to a degree and don't want to get involved in case it touches them lol

[ciley]

i'm suffering really badly, had a fortunate break today, place to self this pm, also being woken by leg cramps,have to pace the room at night....i do get out and it helps me....much as i would love to be in london, i will visit you, anywhere in uk love ciley