I miss having regular coffee.
I started drinking coffee when I was maybe 6-7 years old because at the time a doctor had told me that caffeine may combat my ADHD.
Everyone who knew me knew I LOVED my coffee, it was rare to see me without (not saying I drank only that all day everyday).
Now because of my anxiety I freak out from it and because it's been so long, I get jittery which leads me to panic.
I drink decaf which back then, I swore I'd NEVER drink, yet here I am.
I get teased now since I was such a hardcore coffee addict that's reverted to drinking decaf, people understand why but still like to tease, chips my resolve a little bit.
I even had that yellow caffeine vitamin water a few months back and a few sips was enough to make me panic, in the open which made me feel worse. Luckily my boyfriend helped me through it.
Anyway, thought I'd share because I was going to attempt a sort of "half and half" coffee this morning. Half decaf, maybe a little less than half of regular, but I chickened. Don't want to freak out this early, especially since I went to bed at 4:20 am.
I miss regular coffee man.