Hi everyone!
I suffer with depressive episodes and generalised anxiety disorder. I had a bad episode last September and I made some lifestyle changes which included completely cutting out alcohol and also caffeinated coffee (I still consume caffeine if it is in something like coke zero for example).
I certainly don't miss drinking alcohol but I do miss having a caffeinated coffee in the morning just to give me a little boost.
My problem is that since last September, any little change I feel in my body I catastrophise and convince myself that I am about to have a panic attack which then of course causes me to have a panic attack. I very much panic over panic! So I am concerned that if I drink a caffeinated coffee that my heartrate will increase and I will be in a bad place again. (I felt so rubbish in September I'm just concerned of ever feeling like that again).
I guess I am just wondering if anyone else has/is experiencing something similar and if/how they reintroduced caffeinated drinks?
Thanks!