I’ve given up hope in myself. I don’t believe I will ever get better. I’ve lost faith in god. I don’t even think that god even exists anymore. I’ve completely fallen into a billion pieces and and I can’t pick myself back up and put myself back together. My boyfriend says he loves me and that we are still a couple, but he doesn’t show it.
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I doubt you are alone when it comes to dealing with your boyfriend. I bet the other females on the board could relate to you. Men can be fickle at times.
I have felt like that so many times and still do. Things can feel so bad and overwhelming that it feels impossible they will ever get better. I wish it was an easy fix but as much as it sucks it can just take time to get past that hopeless feeling. Guys can have a real hard time expressing themselves. Maybe you can tell him that you’re not feeling what he’s saying. Maybe he just isn’t aware of how he’s coming across.
I second everything Dabela is saying. It's so hard to see pass the darkness sometimes. Be happy about even the smallest thing when those times happen. Think of things that make you happy.
As for guys, sometimes they struggle to show love or be romantic. Believe me... I've been married 10 years (together 18)... & he's horrible at it... But he 100% loves me. I bet your guy loves you too.
I know this may sound stupid but is there anything right now in your situation that if it could be changed/fixed immediately which would help you feel better what would that be?
Have you thought about moving closer to your boyfriend? You mentioned in another post that you live in different states and haven’t seen him since January. Long distance relationships are extremely hard. Do you have any plans for the future to get together? Maybe the distance is part of the problem.