Major anxiety today

Since February I have been dealing with panic attacks and severe depression over a 5 year relationship that ended. I’m not as sad every day as I used to be but it’s still with me, tomorrow the guy that broke my heart and turned my life upside will be at the same event that I will be. I’m going to try and do everything I can to avoid him cause I don’t want my feelings for him to start all over again but I’m so stressed and having panic attacks over just knowing we will be at the same place and we could run into each other

This man literally turned my life into hell because I allowed my self worth to be validated by him and he left me for someone else and I have always felt that there was something wrong with me

That I wasn’t good enough or pretty enough or smart enough for him to love me

Our relationship ended so badly that he got mad at me one day when we were having an argument that he assaulted me and he also has criminal charges on him and I have to face him at court next week also

I’m so stressed I don’t know what to do

[AmIHappy]

HI, SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT THIS! FIRST OF ALL NO ONE CAN MAKE U BELIEVE THAT U ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH! YEAH I DONT KNW U PERSONALLY BUT IT IS THAT GUY WHO IS NOT GOOD FOR U NOT VICE VERSA ! WHO IS NOT WORTHY TO BE WITH YOU!

DONT WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW BE CONFIDENT , LET UR FEAR BE A WEAPON FOR YOU AND IF U FACE HIM THINK THAT - THAT IS THE GUY WHO MADE LIKE THIS AND WE ARE THERE FOR U IF U NEED SOMEONE TO TALK WE RE THERE. AND IGNORE HIM COMPLETELY, JUST BREATHE AND RELAX WHEN U SEE HIM AND HOLD UR FIST TIGHT WHEN U IGNORE AS IT VERY HARD TO IGNORE SOMEONE WITH WHOM U HAVE BEEN IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH 5 YEARS!

[Lyn842]

He is the loser, not you. Relationship breakups are horrible but life does go on. Do you really want to be with someone who treats you badly? You are worth better than that. He doesn't deserve any attention from you. Avoid him the best you can. No polite hellos, no talking, nothing, esp with a court date! If he comes up to you tell him firmly you have nothing to say to him then walk away.

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I know I deserve better in my head but my heart says something different

I really loved him and did everything I could to show him that I did and then he left me for someone else

I keep thinking this women won and is better than me

I don’t feel loved anymore or wanted and I feel so ugly about myself

I have really tried to move on but it’s all I think about since he left me

I’m ready to start dating again but it’s not like men are lining up at my door for a 40 year old

[Rpan]

I’m sorry this happened to you. It stinks that things became criminal. What I’m wondering is why are you going anywhere that this person will be. Things became dangerous for you so my suggestion is to not put yourself in a position that could be dangerous again for you. Dealing with a break up is traumatic enough, but when you add assault to the situation, that becomes the ultimate betrayal. I’m guessing this situation requires so professional help to sort out so that you can move on feeling empowered.

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I have to be at the same place because one of my child plays sports at a very high level so I can’t avoid going

I am confident with all the people around I will be safe and the guy just wants to move on and be with the women he picked over me so he won’t have any contact with me

I am in therapy and on two kinds of meds which some days feels like it helps

I don’t see my therapist enough I feel because of the money it cost to see her to get a lot of help from her

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It’s hard to imagine that a person I loved so much and I thought loved me could betray and hurt me so much

I have never felt so worthless in my entire life