Dealing with life after murder

[Sarah_brarian]

A friend of mine was murdered two days ago. He was a beautiful spirit. Although I am no stranger to deaths due to illness, old age, birth defects, suicide, accidents, etc. I have never directly known anyone who has been murdered. I am struggling with completely new emotions. Unlike other deaths I've had to deal with, this one has me completely...I don't even have the words. I am still in complete shock. It doesn't seem real. My anxiety has been bad just thinking about going to his funeral. He lives in a mountain town about 30 minutes away. While that doesn't sound far to the average person, that drive scares me. I worry that I'll have a panic attack and miss it. (If there is a service) I feel guilty for having not seen him physically for years, although we chatted online. So, I am feeling guilt and eventual guilt. I can't really put it into words. I am at a complete loss.

[Rpan]

I’m sorry for your loss. It’s such a violent way to go. It’s so scary to think that someone has the capacity to end someone else’s life. No one deserves this sort of violence. Take xtra special care for yourself.

[fauxartist]

I am very sorry for your loss...but do not feel guilty, nothing is your fault, you did your best to stay in touch....your going through shock and grief.....this is a process...and it would not be a bad idea once things take their natural course around your friends passing....you may want to seek some counselling on how to process your grief.