Hate waking up. Hate being alone

[AmyMe]

I hate being alone, I hate waking up and facing another day. I usually feel better after work but the afraid of life is so horrible a lot. Every day. I’m so sick of it I feel physically sick a lot. I almost wish I had like a “sponsor” A special friend who checks up on me. I think it’s going to eat me up inside

[bornagain47]

Oh AmyMe , I am so sorry you are so unhappy and suffering so much . Are you on any meds ? Sometimes you have to give them a little bit time to make you feel better . I pray that you will feel better soon . Hang in there my dear . X

[AmyMe in reply to bornagain47]

Yes fluoxetine and buspirone. I’m not sure what to do it’s been a month now and this is pretty debilitating. Hard not to hate on myself

[bornagain47 in reply to AmyMe]

Awe bless you , Have you had a word with your doctor , sometimes it's a change of meds that's needed , what works for one person doesn't always work for another .I really think you should speak to your doctor . I am sure he will help you . Please whatever you do do not suffer in silence , there is plenty of people on here ready to listen and support you through this . There is always light at the end of a dark tunnel . Praying for you .x

[AmyMe in reply to bornagain47]

I’m going to discuss it with my therapist weds if I can make it that long. Then the fun of waiting for another appt with prescriber.

[nochillc]

Sometimes facing the day can be hard, if I was better I would be your sponsor

[Sprinkle1]

Hello AmyMe, I am in the same boat with you, this has been dragging on for 15 months, and I feel at my wits end. I just do not know what to do, I am on some new med's and have to wait the so called 6 weeks. I cannot go to work, I am too ill and unable to functions. I feel for you, try to hang in there I know it is difficult finding the correct med's - and the old adage of what works for one does not work for another. I am so worn down and feel I have nothing left to give. You have my empathy and I hope you see some daylight soon. I send you love, courage and strength big hugs too. Sprinkle 1..........

[AmyMe in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thankyou Sprinkle1. Just reaching out and knowing you’re not alone helps. Sometimes it feels excruciating just being alive! I hope you find relief soon! Loving energy back at you

[Sprinkle1]

How kind of you to reply to me, it is an awful unrelenting crime, this illness, I often pretend I have a good friend in bed with me (it is a big soft pillow) so I spill out my pain, frustration, and look for soft cuddles in return. I hate the loneliness this infliction bestows on me and my fellow sufferers. I wonder why we have to have brains that do not function properly. I wish the was one pill that could be given to us and presto, back to normal. Well does not hurt to dream. I am sorry that there are so many of us. The statistics say one in 4 of us have an impairment. No wonder the word is in such a mess. I hope you make it thru your day and get some sunshine in it. I am here if you want to write more, and there are many more of us, so stay with us, there are some clever people on line, ready to help including me. Once again I send you strength, courage to fight this battle, love and hugs. Sprinkle 1.............

[AmyMe in reply to Sprinkle1]

Thank-you. I'm shocked this pain is going on so long! Usually it goes away some. This morning for some reason it's strong. I've taken my pills,forced myself to eat some oatmeal. Going to work at 3:30. Been trying all over the internet to find relief. Voted against walking a neighbors dog for just staying huddled in bed with my remaining 2 kitties. I also just lost 2 of my kitties over Rainbow Bridge so I feel extra sad. I just am at my wit's end and must wait this out I pray. I know all the stuff I should do but I guess I'm mad at the world and myself so I havnt done anything like meditate or exercise (I'll get plenty at work). I too wish for a pill that could cure this. It's weird. I just have this overwhelming feeling something is wrong and must run ! I think it's that cortisol or whatever comes up with stress is in overdrive!! I go in Weds to therapist and will talk to her and make appt prescriber. Apologies if I repeat myself. It's hard to think properly