Waking up is hard now

[winternight]

I joined this yesterday, and I thought nights are hard but the moment you wake up has never been so hateful, you recall everything instantly..

[Dolphin14]

Hi

Welcome to the community

Are you able to sleep?

I do understand what you mean. It would be great if sleeping could erase the struggles of the day before.

Are you in therapy? Do you have a close support group of people you can talk with?

🐬

[winternight in reply to Dolphin14]

Hi No I am not able to sleep or express. And I do wish forgetting was easy and you could control these mood elevations. Thankyou for responding. Hope you're doing well

[ciley]

its EXACTLY how i feel~i do sleep and altho dreams weird,not usually nightmares, but that moment you find u are back 'here' is crucifying~so, neither of us are alone~

[winternight in reply to ciley]

Hi, yeah they re not nightmares, they're just weird Reflections of our thought patterns that makes waking up further hard. Thanku for replying. And keep holding up bud!

[ciley in reply to winternight]

yeah, i see the connections, but its v disturbing, esp when you really wake !!! thank you.jill l

[winternight in reply to ciley]

I can understand. You can dm/text me if you want. I will try to be there.

[ciley]

hello,you in uk or us?boiling hot here , for us~i dont like skin playing up fracture knee, i think~how are you?

[winternight in reply to ciley]

No, I am in India, and if you have heard, where I live is the example of extreme weather. So yeah very hot. And I am kinda trying to cope up. It's hard though as I get reminded of those things again and again. How are you doing?

[ciley in reply to winternight]

oh god, i have been twiceto india, rajahstan~working with a vol doctor puppeteer with the tribal bhils~even we are having hottest weather ever, but its not so extreme or long~with me its not so much how i feel as how i view life~i get angry really i cant make itoiut~i should be in london anyway 100 miles only so i so visit every few weeks~

[ciley]

HOW ARE YOU?

[winternight in reply to ciley]

Hey, so you have visited India, then you must be knowing the kind of weather I am talking about and are you a doctor. And me, I don't actually know how I am, it keeps changing, I keep cheering up myself, but I feel lonely, very lonely. And I am scared of future, something I am anxious of, might happen again, I will have to live with my trigger, I am trying to prepare myself, but I feel, I ll just lose it, lose my best friend too like we were, and the previous anger keeps coming up suddenly. I know all this theoretically, being a psychology graduate, but being aware makes it no less painful. Thanku.

How are you doing?

[ciley]

up and down,suffering a lot too~~we are not alone~~i know india,which part? i have bereavment lonliness really it was 12 year back,but when u love~and, under pressure i jumped from fire into frying pan~the simplest plans go awry~heat here been hottest and not nice for most of us,with scots or nordic blood, we don't tan~ glad you writing~we will be 'pen-friends~?'

[winternight in reply to ciley]

Yeah, I would like to be, I am from north india, and I am sorry to hear that you're suffering, I can understand the loneliness, and for me, the more saddening part is I feel lonely at this age only. Although I know it can happen at anytime, but it makes me sad about future ahead. Btw where are you from, your English seems different.

[ciley in reply to winternight]

perhaps because i'm older.in 70's~and love words~try to use different ones in a different way~i am having to learn a new mobile phone which does prescripted text, you dont happen to know anything sbout it? are you a student? i live eastern england 100 miles london,so i do a day trip every few weeks,when there are trains amd no heatwave~before covid loxckdown i did stay for a day or 2 but my hotels were taken by illegals coming across the channel~i finally made up my mind to get back for a night and tried to book ove r a pub,when my payment was refused irealised it was silly to ask for quiet !i am silly~i love natural world~what is your main worry would u say?btw~i am v youthful in looks and spirit, body taking bit of stress with back pain and i may have fractured knee~you take any meds?~twitter can help with lonliness~are u on it?🦚

[winternight in reply to ciley]

I am on twitter, but I haven't been using it since a long time, I don't take any meds and yeah I believe you must be very youthful and cheerful, I wish you had gotten a better environment and better people, you don't look in your 70s at all, yeah I am a student, I will be starting my post graduation soon. My main worry is quiet complicated, it's past stuff and my past is right ahead of me now, my main fear, anger, sadness is I have to face my triggers. And that the person who has been the most important to me is away from me.