Fake it till you make it... ?

I'm so angry with myself, I have so much to be thankful for, and still I feel like life is meaningless. Mostly I feel like, what is the use of dreaming of life ? I feel numb. I wish I cared, but I don't I don't know how long I can keep pretending. It scares me. Not enjoying anything really and just going through the motions, is not something I envisioned for my life.

[sparkle314]

I used to feel like this and most days I still do but it helps to find something you’re passionate about, like for me I’ve always know that I love animals, so now I fight for them, maybe try to live for something or someone else and maybe in doing that you can find yourself

Right now I hear the birds chirping outside my window and it makes my stomach fill with butterflies because I love them so much and that’s a reason to wake up and go outside, even just one foot out the door, maybe tomorrow will be two.

[sparkle314 in reply to sparkle314]

I’m sorry, this probably didn’t help, you’re probably like “exactly I can’t find something to live for you idiot” but I’m saying that it took me a long time to feel like this so you still have time and you will find your thing that brings back meaning to this world

[Hidden in reply to sparkle314]

Not at all what you wrote was really beautiful and gave me a sense of hope, thank you so much for charing it with me. I feel less alone and if someone else could ultimately reach that point where they find something good in their day or life even if it is small- while struggling with depression, I can too.

[CazO46]

Hi, don't be angry with yourself for feeling what you feel. It takes courage to acknowledge when you are stuck and want change but not sure how to take the next step. Being grateful for the good things is helpful but I wonder if you need help to deal with your feelings. Have you thought about therapy or even a life coach? This might help you become unstuck and start again to enjoy life. Easier said than done but can be done, best wishes to you xx

[Hidden in reply to CazO46]

Thank you so much, it means a lot to me. I will definitely look into it. This support group is already helping tremendously, just being able to share bottled up feelings and fears.

[fauxartist]

hi Livingdead...many of us here understand that dark deep pit of despair and not seeing any light at the top of it....depression is a monster....and not one easily overcome...it takes therapy, meds in some cases, alternatives to meds are available...but mostly...baby steps, your already making a step by posting here...these are nice people, please read some others posts, comments, and keep sharing ....it is healing....just breath....get through another day, start a plan for getting help....

[Hidden]

Your advice is so wise, and O' so true. Thank you I truly appreciate it and will keep it in mind. Thanks so much for the advice, it means a lot.