Can I find anyone that likes me!!!

[just_here]

There is this boy at my school that liked and I liked him back. I was so happy that some 1 liked me bc not a lot a people like the fat kid in school but this time it was wrong. So we planned to wait a few weeks then go out so we can talk and get to know each other more. WELL, the next day he told me he likes another girl too. so I asked do I know her and he said IT WAS MY FRIEND. now I was not upset at her but more upset at him, but I didn't say anything. 3 days go by and he tells me he's going to ask her out........what I thought he liked me but I guess it was all a joke to hurt my feelings. she ends up saying "HELL NO". then he comes up to me blaming it all on me telling me I told her to say no and I just told him she just doesn't like you, but I guess he didn't get the hint.

I few days go by he still mad at me. I'm so upset that he could just throw away his feelings for me so fast.2 weeks go by no one's talking about it, I'm all good.The things I didn't notice bc I thought he was so cute started to shined throw. He treated me and everyone else like he's better than them and calls people stupid way too much and takes jokes way to fear.

Some day's I do get upset and think would anyone that was not such a jerk like me.

Some day's I even cry over not having a BF bc all my friends have relations ships and stuff and I don't and sometimes I think's its bc of the way I look or the way I dress idk.....

[HearYou]

Hi! Life sometimes is just the pits, isn't it? Don't think anyone but the dali lama may have it all figured out, but sometimes even he bluffs it sometimes. I would guess that just about everyone on this community has experienced what you did......has nothing to do with weight, height, facial figures there is always something we try to think caused us not to be the ONE. However, you did learn one big time lesson in life......do not say anything to a friend that a person of the opposite has said about her. Stay out of that chaos. No matter how you wish you could change things to help you, do not open your mouth. Keep your hands clean and your mouth closed. And just watch the circus.

When the time comes for you, and it will, you will understand. Hard to be patient, but there are so many people that will pass through your life, more than one will be coming your way.

In the meantime, concentrate on your education. There are a lot of attractive men in this world who are boring as heck....not partnership material, but our darn hormones kept telling us maybe he's ONE, when he is not. You will be surprised, if you get a good education, (education is power), make friends along the way, become powerful enough to be able to support yourself, the men at that time of your life will not only find you beautiful but interesting and intelligent to be a partner for life....IF YOU feel the same way. Everything in its own time. xx