Scared but here I am

[Preciouslamb1]

Hello everyone. I decided to reach out fo help as I feel completely lost. I have experienced anxiety and panic attacks about 4 years ago when my mom passed away. I had a therapist and things have been under control or so so speak until around December 2017 when I ended up in the hospital with a panic attack. I also had family members moved in with me which made things worse because is not a great relationship. All of the sudden the stress from work which is High, then going home to drama with family members that moved it. I just have not been able to get this under control. I keep thinking I’m going to die like my mother, she had heart problems and I evaluate everything in my body, specially my heart, as if there is something wrong. I got checked out with cardiologist 3 years ago and was fine. But I feel now that I’m sick and I’m dying soon. I have worn a Fitbit for years to track my steps and now it has become difficult because I keep analyzing my heart beat on the tracker and thinking is a sign I’m sick.. I have an appt with psychiatrist in three weeks and not sure I’m going to make it. I’m not talking any medicine as I’m trying to wait to see the doctor .. sorry for rambling, just need someone to understand...

[Anxiety13]

I feel the exact same way like if my heart is just gonna stop beating I'm constantly worried about my heart beat and think something is wrong with me. I hate feeling and thinking this way it's so scary i can't help but overthink it

[Preciouslamb1 in reply to Anxiety13]

Thanks for your response. How do you cope if you don’t mind sharing? For me it can happen any time during the day.. I’m so desperate and don’t know what to do..

[Hidden]

Hello! This is all part of this ugly disease! I try to focus on happy, positive thoughts & Love to listen to music. Try to take deep slow breaths in through your nose , then out through your mouth! I'm here for you anytime. I wish you all the best! Peace for you! XXX

[Preciouslamb1 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you... I just wish I can remember to breath like that when I going through an episode.. I feel like a forget all the techniques .. thanks for the support

[Hidden]

I understand what you mean...I feel like at times I lose my brain, don't know where it goes!!!! If you practice it then you will be able to do it, I have faith in you!!! Have a peaceful day! XXX