Hello. My name is Christina and I'm 20 years old. For years now, I have been suffering from depression. I have learned very well throughout these years how to put up walls and by doing so, I have pushed away many good friends and relationships. I come from a cold but loving family. I live with guilt everyday because I know that there is no good reason for me to feel this way especially when there are others who have it worse than me. I am battling with healthy eating and I have turned to food because it seems that it is the only thing that can make me happy and never hurt me. I am new here and really, I just need to know that I'm not alone. I used to take anti-depressants before I tried to overdose on them late one night a few years ago. I stopped taking them and tried to just change my lifestyle by eating healthy and exercising. It's been a roller coaster. At this point, I just don't know how I'm going to get through it. I am also a college student and ironically, a psychology major. I work with kids everyday and I love my job. Being alone with my thoughts it just another world. I feel like two completely different people when I am at work and when I am at home. Something is missing. I hope that this will help me figure out why I keep stumbling.