Fuck it.

[fallingapart101]

I'm new here by the way. I'm getting bad again. Like I did 3 years ago. One of my closest friends killed himself on Thursday by overdosing. He left a letter for me and his best friend, my ex, but he's too scared to open the letters and I really want to know what's inside my letter. I want him to mail it to me but don't know when I'll be able to ask him if he can. It's the last thing of his that I'll ever hold. My stepdad yells at my mom a lot and it hurts to hear her scream and cry like that. Pleading him to stop. Stop yelling. Just stop. She's supposed to worry and care for me not the other way around, she always says to me. But I am always going to worry and care for her... I love her and am super worried. I just got out of an almost 1-month abusive relationship with a guy who ended up saying I'm mentally fucked up forever to one of my exes who was defending me... But maybe he's not wrong... I'm not going to get into my back story or whatever it's called. But the shit I've gone through is too much tbh... I don't know how I'm still alive... But recently if something were to happen to me, I wouldn't be upset if I died and wouldn't fight to survive. If this were the hunger games, I'd be happy to die.

[Jonnn]

We all go through things that some people will never understand so don’t believe it when your ex says your mentally fucked up. Try to keep your head up. Like they say, “it’s always darkest just before the dawn.”

[Justswimming]

I'm sorry you have so much negative stuff going on. You will get through this please don'take a permanent decision based on a temporary situation. Just give yourself time. Practice self care..let your mom deal.w your step dad unless he hits her than call the cops.You should see a therapist find out about your insurance if don't have you could do sliding scale so you can afford sounds like your mom needs a therapist too. Hang in theremlet me know how you're doing.