help! I'm having delusions!

[thebeetle]

Yikes! my family is in town for my mother's birthday and I'm having the delusion that they're here to stage a mental health intervention for me. The problem is that I can't really reassure myself that this is a delusion at the moment. I'm really worried. I know I have a personality disorder, and I'm getting professional help. I just hope they know that I'm working on it on my own and all of them confronting me at once would be really terrifying in the worst way. Maybe they're trying to stage a regular intervention?

I really don't have a drug and alcohol problem. I'm way too paranoid to sustain one. I'm lying in bed and I'm scared. I don't know what's real.

[hypercat54]

How awful for you. Ask yourself why your family would stage a mental health intervention for you? Have you come up with any reasons why they would? Do you think they care about you and if so why would they treat you like this? What do you think is going to happen?

No the reality is they are just coming for your mother's birthday so concentrate on that and enjoy yourself. x

[thebeetle in reply to hypercat54]

Thank you so much. I'm going to schedule an appointment with my therapist today. Thanks for your care. It really helps.

[hypercat54 in reply to thebeetle]

You are more than welcome. I must admit I don't really understand paranoia but I do try to and help if I can. Well done for being proactive and making that appointment with your therapist. x

[fauxartist]

I'm sorry your stressing, but if you can, Try not to put the cart before the horse, talk to you doctor on what you need to do to calm yourself through this family thing. If they did ask you how you are doing, simply say you are getting help and working on getting where you need to be emotionally. You will be okay, glad your sharing here.

[thebeetle in reply to fauxartist]

I'm going to talk to my therapist today. Thank you so much for your response. It's really grounding.

[LavendorTown88]

thebeetle - It sounds like a mental health intervention would actually be a good thing. So why the worry?

It sounds more like you're concerned about people trying to control you. Like it's deeper than just what you're saying.

Also, break in reality comes from your aniticpation of what's to come (or what you THINK is to come). No use worrying about it because that won't change anything either way.

Peace. Rebekah ~