Another burst

[Aliftimago]

So I went celebrate recovery last at a local church.....I could not stop crying and everyone kept looking at me like I was crazy. I could not even open up about anything.....I think I'm going through some major trust issues. I'm afraid to go back but I know I need to go back. I'm thinking I will wait until I have seen a professional before going back into a public setting alone.....or maybe next week I will ask my cousin to come with me cause all I wanted to do was leave but I couldn't even talk or move. It was extremely difficult. I had trouble falling asleep and staying asleep all night and now have a headache that keeps making me dizzy. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I'm angry at myself for allowing myself to become a victim and now I'm afraid of living again.i need some serious professional help. I know my body is not acting right. And I can't get a grasp in it. I just want

to be fixed.

[gerrerd]

When i was having phobia problems. I started to use Self hypnosis CDs. There are loads of cd,s for this at Potentials Unlimited on line. It worked for me. Love Ray.

[fauxartist]

sorry your having such a ruff time, was curious if I understood this right, did you say you went to your church to celebrate a recovery date, as in groups for addiction recovery. If that's what you mean, you must know you will not be judged in these groups.

[Aliftimago in reply to fauxartist]

Life issues... similar thing.....I know....that's why I was having such a hard time.....I don't think it was a group for me.....or maybe I had no one to relate to in my life issue.

[Aliftimago in reply to fauxartist]

I need to find a group that has been through sexual abuse and domestic violence....I keep looking and looking but this was the closest I could find and I couldn't open up. I just cried. My cousin said she will go with me next week for support.

[fauxartist in reply to Aliftimago]

okay then, yes....your are a survivor....I am too....My closest thing to help me was a group that got together from a counselling center for survivors. I was also in a group for people who grew up in dysfunctional familes...it is a 12 step group though, and the title does not sound like it would help but it did...adult children from alcoholic and dysfunctional families. There was also a 12 step group for sexual abuse survivors. I do know here where I live there is a 'Crisis Center' for women who have been sexually abused, and in most cities there is something similar. Just keep looking till you find the right fit, it's out there, and always keep sharing here.