I thought I'd see what this was all about. Honestly growing up I never thought I'd find myself where I'm at but that's how the cookie crumbles.
Well how to start....I'm coming up on 30, single and no kids, have had health issues so the company had to replace me I worked for awhile ago, could get my unemployment but to proud plus you can't get it in my area if your doctor says your still ill, refuse to sign up for anything do to again pride so right now I'm in debt, no apartment or home so with family at my age which is embarrassing, and failed relationship to boot. So I've been doing with a combo of A and D. Neglecting my health, not wanting to move, anti social and over thinking everything and all the emotions and thinking of the past. The relationship just ended 2weeks ago but that's a whole story on its own. One of the things that seem to be bothering me is that everywhere I look people are doing well now...it makes my head hurt and I think...."How did it come to this" "Where did I go Wrong" then I think wow I'm coming on 30 and this is where I'm at. I've dealt with issues before. Battled all my life from a kid up with everything and I did my best to do it right. However this is the first time I've felt truly defeated. Though I still have one of the strangest human emotions "HOPE".
It's odd....I used to be the person that helped people with their problems and gave them an ear...now here I am and I have no one near me to do the same so....that's why I thought "What the Hell" and now I'm here posting.