So blue

[Simonn]

Feeling so down and negative today don't know how to snap out of it. Been taking 20mg citalopram which has lifted my mood but still feel so down like there is nothing to look forward to. My life on paper should make me happy. A wife two young boys a home though we are looking to sell to move closer to family. Why cant i count my blessings and just be happy just feel this dark gloom over my head. Sry for the long post just wanted to write.

[mo9012]

Don’t beat yourself up for feeling how you feel. Every emotion of yours is completely valid.The last thing you need is more guilt and negative emotion to fuel the monster. It sounds like you do have many blessings, instead of looking at them as wasted opportunity to be happy, maybe try looking at them as inspiration and support to fight this! It’s a great sign that medicine is working a little bit, keep fighting and adjusting your meds and you will be feeling better I promise you. It gets better. We’re rooting for ya

[Simonn in reply to mo9012]

Thank you mo been finding it hard the last week flu hasnt helped struggling to keep positive

[mo9012 in reply to Simonn]

Sorry to hear you’ve been sick on top of it all. Struggling to keep positive means at least you’re fighting!

[Simonn in reply to mo9012]

Thanks mo hope your doing well

[Clarebear86]

What are you like? You keep beating yourself up, for no reason at all. It is a very stressful time but the outcome will be so much more rewarding for you. Try to think about the outcome and why you are doing it.

[Simonn in reply to Clarebear86]

It seems to be my default to beat myself up or berate myself. You ok hows it going

[Clarebear86 in reply to Simonn]

I’m ok. Just having a few more bad moments again. Uncertainty is writhe! We all tend to beat ourselves up for no apparent reason, we are all very good at that lol

[Hidden]

Oh Simonn I am so sorry to hear this! Yes on paper things may look good but this disease is an ugly , horrible thing to deal with. Don't understand it, the million $ question, huh? Hang in there my friend.

Sending you peace, health & joy!

[Tiredinky]

I’m sorry you’re struggling right now. It’s hard but try to remember you won’t always feel this way. I too have been struggling the past week. I was doing really well and then life threw me a curve ball and knocked me down. I’m trying to get back up. I think it’s important for us to keep trying to do and feel our best. Hang in there!

[Simonn in reply to Tiredinky]

Its hard to see it sometimes i have been on and off meds for years not sure I'll ever get out of it

[Tiredinky in reply to Simonn]

I’ve been on meds continually for 30 years and gone through the agony of them stopping being effective and finding new medication that works for my depression and anxiety. I try not to beat myself up for having a few bad days and keep telling myself this too shall pass.

[Simonn in reply to Tiredinky]

Wow that must be tough. I dwell too much and sometimes feellike I have no fight left in me. Thank you for replying

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

Just start a daily journal of blessing. “Today it was sunny and warm.” “My beautiful wife smiled at me today”. It really has a lot to do with how you choose to perceive things or react to them. Have you gone to counseling Simonn? It can help you get to the root of your sadness, recognize trigger, learn coping skills etc.

Perhaps moving closer to family will be very beneficial as well. I sure hope so. I know it’s hard to find the excitement when you are depressed but instead of focusing on negative try celebrating every accomplishment big or small! Also don’t forget about your me time! Anything you enjoy. Sports, hiking etc. Nature is a wonderful cure all. Fresh air, trees etc. I love camping (it’s very cheap fun) or fishing, canoeing or kayaking, walks in woods or trails etc. Offer to play a board game or imagination game with your kids. Laugh and be silly. I have a playlist of some of my favorite music I like to jam out with, sing and dance. I love comedy. Anything to make me laugh. You have to find something just for you. It’s so important. As always, here if needed.

[Simonn in reply to Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

Thank you. Me time for both of us is hard two young kids 3 and 18mths wear us out. My parents help but only so we can work they are nearly 70 so dont expect too much from them. I had cbt many years ago that didnt really help. Hope your ok

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell in reply to Simonn]

I’m doing okay. Take turns. Give her a day then you take a day or even a couple hours. I understand though it’s hard with Little’s. Take one day even and one gets first half and other gets second half of day. It really is helpful.