High Anxiety

[Scottt8]

I've dealt with anxiety for a very long time. My kids are all grown and I'm recently single. I am so bad right now,having physical manifestation also. I don't like being alone because I'm afraid something is going to happen to me,and I'm all by myself,I hate living in my mind!!!! I'm so afraid

[MyMeanMind]

I'm so sorry, Scottt8. I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes I have such intense fear from my anxiety that I don't even want to be alone for the short time it takes me to take a shower. My mind is like a dark, bad neighborhood. I find that coming to this forum and watching or listening to Eckhart Tolle or other mindfulness teachers on YouTube really helps. Please know that you are not alone, my friend.

[Scottt8 in reply to MyMeanMind]

Thank you,it does help to know other people suffer from this,I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy!!!!

[Scottt8]

Thank you so much!!!! This is going to help me,others just don't understand how I feel inside,I hide it so well,but I'm so scared on the inside,afraid I'm going to die every minute of every day

[Scottt8]

Thank you,and I do see someone every other week,but just texting to someone else who knows what I am feeling is helpful,it sucks so bad,I just want to enjoy the little things in life and I can't,and haven't in a long time. I'm so afraid of dying,but if it wasn't for my kids,sometimes I believe dying would be better than feeling like this. I live alone now,my boyfriend of 6 years decided he would just move out in November,while I was at work,no text,no call,no note. We weren't doing good,but my god,I didn't even get a good bye!!!!!

[Scottt8]

Thank you so much for taking the time to text,I feel like I got someone out there that understands me and knows what I am going through. You'll never know how much better you have made me feel,I hope we can keep in touch!!!! Thanks