Will I ever be the same?

[Aliftimago]

I use to be someone different than I am today....I cry in front of people when I don't mean to no matter how much I hold it back it still pours out of my eyes and I begin to shake and tremble then when I leave the situation have tense shoulders and a very intense headache that I can't seem to get rid of for days.....it scares me.

[tashalyn]

Yes you will be the same again, the one and only thing I know for a fact is this damn thing doesn’t last, it passes, feels like ages when it’s happening, but it will pass. Are you seeing a therapist or on any medication?

[Aliftimago in reply to tashalyn]

I've been barking up every tree I possibly can as I have a son to raise and a daughter to be a role model for. It's relieving to know this is just a passing thing. I know I'm never going to be the same again but I will be okay with finding a new me. I don't have the attention span to read right now but the internet helps in finding short reading to help my journey along.

[MaraP]

I totally feel you. Over the last year, I have felt like totally different person, it does get better with time, but I am still on my way to feel like myself 100%. Or maybe just on my way to discover the new me.

[Aliftimago]

What's been helping?

[MaraP]

Seeing a psychologist has helped a lot. To go through all those dark and I would say weird feelings and thoughts. To dig up the past and looking for a reason where is this all coming from. It is of course also painful, cause we all have something hidden in us what we have put under a lock.

I started to do some excersing at home with youtube (haha), that helped.

Also having someone besides the therapist, who I could trust and talk to was very very important. For me it was a colleague at work. Cause for me anxiety isues are very intimate and for a long time my closest friends didn’t even know about what I am going through, and still they know only a part of it.

I read one really good book, which helped me.

As I have a problem being outside the house alone, for the times when I needed to go from point A to point B, I have figured out all possible scenarios what could happen and how am I going to deal with them if that happens, it kind of helps. But still, overthinking can do a lot of damage.

If you want to talk, I would be happy to have a private conversation, if you are interested.

[Aliftimago]

I have no one right now....but like I said I am trying to get help. I think therapy will help.

[Aliftimago]

I think I was born overthinking....I try not to. I don't have the attention span to read a book right now. I guess that's why I joined to find someone that I can relate with that I'm not related to lol think it may help.

[MaraP in reply to Aliftimago]

Yeah, me too. Every situation needs to be over and overthought. Now I am learning to control it, but is hard.

[MaraP]

As I think, life gives us these difficulties for us to see our life in different perspective, to see that something needs to change.

It is a hard journey, but I think something good also comes out of it.

(What I can suggest, don’t read too much about all this on the internet, cause for me, it gave my anxiety an anxiety, haha)

[Aliftimago]

I don't mean I have no one I mean the people I do have are too close to the situation that I don't want to let them in on certain details

[Aliftimago]

I know what you mean! I have to stop cause it's alot to take in.

[MaraP in reply to Aliftimago]

Listen to yourself and don’t push it too hard.

[gerrerd]

Relax remember just a heart beat away

[Aliftimago]

Thank you Ray