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[preet07]

hi i am preet. i just tried to end my life but i failed .i dnt feel like living anymore. this life seems burden to me

[Janieliza]

Preet it does feel like a burden doesn't it? Ohh trust me I know this feeling well. I've been where you are now, many times and I'm still here and I did come through the other side....with the right support and help...you will too. Oh i know when you are in that mindset that you can't climb out of the darkness and nothing I or anyone else says will help. But it will help you lovely. Yes it will. Because you are worth the support and you are relevant. We need to get you to a place where you believe all this. If i could wave a magic wand and say abracadabra and whoosh it away for you and so many others on here I would. I can't, what I can do though is be here for you. That darkness you are in....do me a favour please? Please? Imagine a light or lantern. At the moment it will be so faint you can just see it. Just. But it's there. Close your eyes and take a deep breath in through your nose and count to 4 then breathe out through your mouth and count to 8. If this is too much then count to 3 and then count to 6 as you exhale. Imagine the light....and I want you to put something inbetween you and the light...stepping stones across a lake perhaps or a road or even a beautiful field. And then after that breath...try and step forward, doing the breathing all the time. Picture a time when you smiled(I know I know it was sooo long ago) but try...please? Hold that thought as you step forward. It doesn't matter by the way if you don't manage a step or you get so far and fall. You are doing it....do you know how proud you should be. This world won't WON'T be a better place bcas you are no longer here. I want you to try a daily mantra for me also please if you can. When the thoughts of leaving come...try to say this. "I can come out of the dark, it won't last, I can come out of the dark, it won't last". This personally brought me out of some dire situations, one I nearly didn't make it through. So I do know what I'm talking about...everyones different of course and just bcas it did work for me..may not for others. I shall be your cheerleader. How's that!! Now, I'm 46 years old...im not slim with legs up to my armpits and if I'm offering to be a cheerleader(well doesn't everyone imagine them with their pom pom things strutting their stuff?) Then it will either make you howl laughing or frighten you to the point of "take that image awwaaaaay". Either way...ill do it as will everyone else on our little healthunlocked family(my name for it). You will have the support here bcas we all have been in the same position. Some are still in it...some recovering and some..like me, through it albeit with occasional wobbles. Please if you feel that darkness consume you again...come on here...dont wait. We can't promise to fix it but we can be here with you and for you. Listen to me when I tell you you are precious. You are important and you deserve to be here and more importantly....we will walk by the side of you and if you fall, we will try and pick you up and keep you up. It's not an overnight thing, it takes time and when you have a sec...tell me one positive thing about yourself. I'll start....you came here. It takes courage to do so. You didnt mention medical interventions or meds...are you taking anything? If so I'll chat to you later if ok? Sending you hugs and remember YOU HAVE SUPPORT AND LOVE HERE. Janie xx

[preet07 in reply to Janieliza]

thankyou so much for your msg .

yes i m taking sertaline 100 mg .

i cant think of any thing positive abt me .

i m deoressed , anti social , i just like being alone , i dnt have friends n now even my marriage is burden for me .

i wanted a good carrier for me but i failed , i cant conc on studies anymore ..

i feel hard to even learn small small things .

like even i failed wriitren test for driving license .

i dnt know i have so much gng inside me , i dnt know what to u . i feel so overwhemed with this stress.

[Janieliza in reply to preet07]

I believe you need your meds changing...like yesterday and as soon as possible. You are looking for a therapist? If you can let me know where about you are...not exactly, I'll do some hunting around for you, my daughters not well at the moment so I will do it after that. If it's not affordable...then come on here...its free and great therapy plus a release and you never know...some of us know abit about it and may be able to help you without a therapist. I hear you with the marriage issue. 26 years and it ended...id known him longer. He was my everything but my anxiety and depression sent him right into the arms of someone else..i get it and certainly don't hate him for it. You will come out of this sweetheart. You will. If you need a shoulder...dont hesitate. Ok? X

[preet07 in reply to Janieliza]

i m currently in fall river . i m just visiting my family here. i m nt working currently so depending on parents for expenses.any free help would be very great for me.

i basically belong to canada i cant get my meds changed anysoon as i cant afford any dr here

[HearYou in reply to Janieliza]

I still think we should b called "Washingtons".

[Hidden in reply to HearYou]

Do you mind if I pm you?

[preet07 in reply to Hidden]

no i wont mind infact i would be thankful for helping me out

[Anxiousjy]

Hi, mind sharing us what you’re going through? Ending your life is not the answer. You will be ok. ❤️

[preet07 in reply to Anxiousjy]

i m facing professional issues n also my married life is nt happy n stable, my in law’s force me to plan kid but i dnt feel like having a baby . coz i dnt love my life, i dnt understand purpose of my life than how can i bring new life to earth . i dnt know but i dnt get pleasure in anything that exists here

[Anxiousjy in reply to preet07]

I understand. Take your time, and do things when you are comfortable doing them not just because others want you to. Have you sought professional help?

[preet07 in reply to Anxiousjy]

no not yet,i am looking for therapist .

[Anxiousjy in reply to preet07]

I hope you find one that can help you.

[tashalyn]

I think many of us here are burdened by that. I woke up today with that idea in my mind, but I know and you know deep down that isn’t the solution; please tell me that you have a therapist or professional help. If not, please do reach out to get some.

[preet07 in reply to tashalyn]

i m looking for professional help but dont have any currently

[deea21]

Hey preet. You know I feel your broken heart. I know how it is because I’ve done it so many times I don’t have fingers to count. But that’s for a reason. Because you love live in your own way. You need to know more, learn more. I live this way everyday and I tried almost any way to kill myself but I’m still here. I’m a coward or I still want to live?! I will never know the answer. But I do know I’m here and I try to see what live can give me. If you feel weak, try a therapist or find a hobby. I found that if I’m writing I feel like I’m flying and even if it burns my soul, I want to do it more and more. It is my passion or it’s my path? I will never know if I don’t try to live and do something. Be here with us and try to do something for yourself . We are all unique in different ways. I’m here for you anytime. Big hugs and Big up

[preet07 in reply to deea21]

thanks dear for giving me so much positivity . thanks a lot