On the edge

[Spirit19]

Your family not understanding how you feel ... I’m so tired of living a life where nobody understands me in my real life ... what’s the point ... everything is becoming to much .... I’m on the verge of tears ... 😭

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry. We understand where you are coming from. What's wrong?

[Spirit19 in reply to Hidden]

My step mom asked me what was wrong and I just said I was tired from work and she looked at me like how can you be tired from work ... then she asked me about my suicidal thoughts and I started to cry and walked away ...

[Hidden in reply to Spirit19]

I've heard that before from my own mom. The how can you be tired part. People don't seem to understand how exhausting depression and anxiety can be. Sounds like she needs to communicate better. But if you tell her how you feel, maybe she'll understand.

[Spirit19 in reply to Hidden]

If I told her how I feel she’d tell my doctor

[Hidden in reply to Spirit19]

That sounds like she doesn't respect your privacy.

[Spirit19 in reply to Hidden]

I’m at work at I’m in the back crying like a baby ... I feel so weak ...

[TheEraOfSarah in reply to Spirit19]

I’ve been there. Sometimes you just need to let it out! There’s nothing wrong with crying. You are not weak, you are sick. There’s a difference. You got up and went to work. That takes an incredible amount of strength for some of us! I get it.

[Hidden in reply to Spirit19]

Why did you walk away?..talk to her..please..I am hurting so much that my parents don't ask me how I'm doing where I'm literally withering in front of them and they ignore me..it kills me..you have someone close ..please tell her what's happening ..we are here for you too..

[Spirit19 in reply to Hidden]

Because I knew she wouldn’t understand she never will

[Hidden in reply to Spirit19]

But she asked you..I cried Infront of my mum and she didn't even ask what's wrong...I now know where I stand with her..but your mum asked you and you walked away..go and talk to her and see what she has you say..tell her you found it hard to open up to her when she asked and tell her what the go is...if you don't get the reply your looking for, then so be it..we are here for you aswell..by the way, what's wrong?

[Spirit19 in reply to Hidden]

I’m just so sick of feeling the way I do not having any energy no motivation to do anything .... life is just so unfair when you have depression and anxiety

[Hidden in reply to Spirit19]

Yeah it is, your not wrong...I understand how you are feeling..you are not alone..we all get through it one way or somehow...everything is for a reason, good and bad..we gotta keep pushing forward no matter what..

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Maybe everything IS for a reason and I believe good can come out of the bad

[Starrlight in reply to Spirit19]

💕

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

((((((((((Ellinaki)))))))) (((((((((Spirit)))))))) yes please do talk to her, Spirit, she may surprise you. It’s worth a shot.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

💕

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Same to you ..

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

😊

[Tinman71]

I send this big HUG to you and it may not be much to solve the problem , But I just want you to know someone else cares .

[Spirit19 in reply to Tinman71]

I dont know what it’s gonna take for me to be honest with my therapist and psychiatrist.... but if I want to move forward I’ll have to be honest ....

[Starrlight in reply to Spirit19]

Maybe try being honest about one thing at a time and add on as you feel ready.

[Spirit19 in reply to Starrlight]

Some of the things are so hard to talk about ... some of them are embarrassing

[Starrlight in reply to Spirit19]

Oh same here. Some I think about and they drive me nuts because I can’t let go... but if we were to talk about it I think the less power it would have on us...

[Spirit19 in reply to Starrlight]

My mind drives me nuts because I can’t enjoy anything anymore not even music .... I just feel so useless