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Had an outburst yesterday 💩🔫⚠️

Between the stop and go traffic, to people driving too fast or too slow, to finally getting where you need to be. But then realizing you brought the dogs so you'll have to find a spot to park, leave the engine running and lock the door praying no one will break out your window because it's Florida and that's what people do if they see dogs in the car for a few minutes ugh. I find a spot, turn on the a.c., lock up, go to enter the lab simply to drop off a specimen for my husband. They close for an hour the hour I decide to go there. Back into the car, annoyed but I then remembered groceries were in the trunk so I drive back home still leaving the dogs in the car in the driveway. Bring in and quickly put away all the groceries. Back out to try this again. Even more traffic, dumb drivers, but the lab is reopening in two minutes, yes! Absolutely no parking, so I see a few walk to their vehicles so I wait patiently. Three minutes later not one car is moving. Literally, the SECOND I decide to try for another spot then they back out another vehicle just driving through gets it. This goes on for about ten minutes. My anxiety has finally had enough. I try to park in fire zone turning on my hazards to literally drop off a specimen. Ugh ugh ugh. The second I'm getting out a women is leaving another business and I just so happened to be blocking her car 😣😣😣 why me? I felt anger, defeat. I drove off with such anger and frustration. I call my husband crying and upset but then feel bad to burden him with my anxiety nonsense. He understands but can't do much as he is at work. I apologize, thank him for letting me vent then head back home. I'm not even sure I want to attempt that again today. I hate that I cannot always do the simplest of things because of how I get. I don't want to freak out about dumb stuff. Now I'm stuck with a specimen bag with 💩 on my front seat hopefully the garage doesn't warm up today, hot shit in the air doesn't seem too appetizing. ⚠️⚠️⚠️ If you stayed through this entire thing, thank you from a crazy lady 🤣🤣🤣💜🌴

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xobrandy211xo, we've all been there brandy. Everything that could go wrong will. Of course having a specimen in the car is something you want to drop off sooner than later :) Our Type A personality sometimes doesn't allow us to be patient and take life with a smile. Nothing is worth getting our lives in a tailspin when simple things don't go as planned. I start my deep breathing as I'm driving anywhere so that when things happen and they will, I'm already one step ahead of the game. I hope the next time you try you will accomplish your feat. But just in case, start deep breathing slowly. Inhale the calm, exhale the stress of anyone getting the parking spot before you. Breathe xx

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Thank you Agora! I'm trying my best 😊

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Brandy

I totally understand because of driving I get major road rage I can feel my heart beating and get that adrenaline rush and I just want to kill people, all it takes is one asshole driving to close because he thinks his fucking life is worth more than everyone else. So I don't drive much anymore because I'm scared I'm going to lose it and end up in jail.

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Your post honestly sounds like how 80% of Americans feel but still drive like idiots. I'm sorry it is that bad for you but it's good you were able to catch that as a problem!

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Beerglass, I've been there but it didn't make me stop driving. Instead I worked on my reaction to things I couldn't control. Life is less stressful now as I breathe my way and enjoy my ride to and from no matter what the traffic is like. The goal is to stay safe. I hope you get some help for that road rage. It's not worth your life or someone else. x

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Your lucky you can do that. I can't I just have to take my time and figure it out. I won't be surprised if I will never be able to drive in traffic again.

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Beerglass, never say "never". Life changes, we change. I thank you for being responsible and admitting to a problem. Take care and have a good weekend my friend. x

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why can't your husband drop his own specimen off at the lab?!

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I offered because he works his butt off for us. And this morning he was going to but mentioned he has meetings all day. I'm home so I don't mind doing that for him.

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Update from today..I was on my way to take my brothers friend to work about 30 mins away. But first on my way to the lab a woman turned into traffic where i was driving didn't stop, look and thankfully i swerved to avoid an accident she still had no cares in the world. 😈😬 Finally made it to the lab.. I had my brothers friend drop it off inside. He comes out with the bag still in his hand. My level of anxiety skyrocketed 😣. I ask him to go back in and just leave it on the desk with the paperwork and walkout..😤 I don't even care anymore at this point I'm over the bs. Finally head to Tampa, drop him off. About ten minutes from home and I have an older guy cut me off from a side road, then decides to drives super slow. Mind you I was going 45 (the speed limit) and the dump truck behind me was rapidly approaching.😲 He swerved onto the grass to avoid hitting me. 😑 why me? 😣😭 I am very grateful those accidents didn't happen but WTF I cannot make this up! I'm going to stay in bed for the rest of the day. Someone or something must be out to get me. 😢☹

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