My anxiety is elevated due to a situation at work; a new employee transferred from another location and is a vehicle transporter (Hertz) with my crew; however, he's rubbing a few people the wrong way, and trying to assert himself. It's a trigger for me from my Army experience, in which some peers and senior ranking officers came into my working environment and decided to try to take over the good ideas that I was implementing, then have me reassigned basically to my own little corner. It's not that the job is so important ($8.40 an hour), but I enjoy the peace of driving alone in some nice vehicles, then chilling out with music in the shuttle van (if I'm not driving). As a result, I've missed almost a week of work, and the thought of being fired just adds to the anxiety. The good news is that my new shrink changed my sleep medication from what wasn't working to another that apparently does. Even so, I didn't go to work today, with the excuse that the new medication dosage has to be increased to be effective. I just get so sick of the occasional drama that takes place. It's so childish and unproductive. I decided I couldn't be a civilian executive after leaving the Army because that environment can be just as toxic as the military one I left behind. I have zero tolerance for politics and narcissism. In the end, the acts of others to sabotage me put me at the mental health clinic at the base with a total breakdown. As much as I loved serving, I just couldn't deal with the climate, especially the good old boys club and other cliques.
I want to be back at work tomorrow, either ignoring or accepting the current climate, with the courage to push back against the new employee and his attitude.
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Work Advice: To disclose or not to disclose?
