About 2 years ago my grandma passed away and thats when it all began. I was always a person who would get nervous but I hadn't experienced sleepless nights and suffocating days. At nights I would not sleep thinking something will happen to my parents when I am asleep, it was a hard time and messed me up really bad. Since that day I have had self esteem issues, low confidence and a constant state of rushing thoughts. My mind is never at peace, I over think every thing no matter how trivial it is. I am exhausted. Sometimes I feel I am loosing my self. I used to act,dance and sing and since last 1 year I've stopped doing that. Things right now are relatively better but I really don't know went they might turn around. Coming here makes me feel I am not alone and is a huge relief, I can relate to a lot of things here.