I’m having a hard time inside my head.

[Mercedes11]

I can’t ignore the sad feeling I have today. I’m feeling scared of the future falling apart. Instead of anxiety it’s both. The anxiety and worry are making me sad about what could go wrong. Life’s happy now but because of a couple past events I’m scared everything is going to fall apart. I’ve been crying at work in my car today and trying so hard to keep it together at home. I’m just going to bed early but I’m worried that once I lay down the tears will start and I’ll wKe up all swollen in my face from crying. Ughhhh I feel alone even tho I’m not. This doesn’t feel good at all.

[Janieliza]

Welcome to the rollercoaster called 'anxiety' it's a new ride for some but many of us have been trying to get off it for years!. I'm sorry you are having a bad day, take some deep breaths or write how you are feeling down(Not typing but with a pen and paper) and really focus. There's always yoga!!! I'm the least motivated person going and i decided that i would give it a go. It's not all about putting ones legs around body parts they shouldn't medically be able to do lol....but it's about concentration also. You mentioning the word 'happy' means it's there somewhere and this will pass. Please take care. J

[Agora1]

No Mercedes11, it doesn't feel good to feel afraid that the future may fall apart even though life is good now. Do you see how Anxiety works in that even when we are going along okay, anxiety comes along and puts those doubts of fear in our minds. We only have the present, to worry about, the future and what might happen is nothing but a waste of energy as well as it robbing you of the joy of today.

The couple of past events you had doesn't mean it can or will happen again. If it were devastating enough it may be you are suffering from PTSD which is producing the worry of the event repeating itself and that's why the crying is following you around. Have those 2 issues ever been addressed? By addressing the past issues and recognizing how you handle the situation, that can better make you prepared to handle anything that may come up in life. After all it's how we handle ourselves in life and not what life throws our way.

Going to bed early is good if you are tired but if it is used as a means of escape then you may wake up crying because the sub conscious mind is always alert, playing over the events of the day as well as of the past. Try working on what scares you as well as accepting that the past is the past and can't hurt you but worrying about it everyday can keep you on the alert and wear you down. x

[Hopeful-Tinkerbell]

Tomorrow isn’t promised and yesterday is gone. One of the hardest but most meaningful things I have done is learning to live in the now. We can’t change the past we can only learn from it and not repeat mistakes. Tomorrow hasn’t happened yet. Try not to stress but I know how hard that can be. You said things are good right now. Celebrate them! Enjoy it while you can. Anxiety and depression can force us to focus on the negative. You need to retrain your brain to look for the good. Then handle the bad only when it happens. I like writing down blessings or things I am thankful for each day. Then slowly increasing the list. You’ve got a bunch. Things are good now. Focus on that. Enjoy that! It’s a problem for many of us. My husband asked me recently where I see myself in 20 years. I told him I haven’t decided what I want to be when I grow up! (I’m already retired. I had a career.) I don’t know what I’m doing this afternoon. Live in the now. I know it’s hard. Trust me but it can be done.