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[doublebassinlove]

hey my mom showed me this forum recently so i could find some support. i've been dealing with issues of depression, anxiety, and dissociation for the last six years and was officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder (type 2) in 2016. it's normally kind of under control with medicine and stuff but over the last few weeks has been extremely chaotic. the mood swings are so intense; i go from such extreme happiness to such agonizing anxiety to a deep depression all in a day. i recently had my Latuda prescription lowered so that might be causing it? i don't know. it's crazy though, i don't know if i can take just how extreme these mood changes are. the instigators of these harsh mood swings aren't always that huge either. just today i took a picture of myself that i really liked because it hid the parts of my face i hate so much (like the roundness or squareness of it for one) and it brought out my eyes. my mom criticized it saying it was horribly depressing (because i wasn't smiling, as i never do in pictures) and my dad said the composition of the photo made me look like an addict. and it got maybe a third of the attention on social media that most of my posts would. i know this is a shallow thing to be bothered by but the dramatic difference in perspective between me and myself is crazy.

sorry if this was kind of rambling i just needed to get this off my chest. please read this

i can post the photo if needed

[gkskfangs]

sometimes, small things can lead to massive mood swings and not everyone can understand that. i do feel like that sometimes, and what I wanted to tell you is that you shouldn't blame yourself for that. if you feel like what you've done has made you feel a little bit better, trust yourself on that. i haven't been to a GP yet so i don't know much about prescriptions and all, so i hope others who know would step in. nevertheless, i hope you'd feel at least a little bit better soon, i'm sending you warm hugs from afar.

[doublebassinlove in reply to gkskfangs]

thank you for your support my friend

[Agora1]

doublebassinlove, I don't know why people are like that. If you can't say anything nice then don't say anything at all. Most people don't realize how sensitive we are to all comments. We don't want to be the focus of attention but we do want to be recognized.

Post the photo if you want to. xx