I feel so lonely and unwanted. No one wants to hang out with me, no one asks how I am or if I would like to do something with them. I’ve just gone through an awful and confusing as hell breakup and I didn’t even know about this even though our friends did, and no one even asked me about it or if I was okay - it feels as though my whole life I’ve just seemed like an unapproachable person? Even though I try so damn hard for everyone? I am always asking people how life is, checking in on them etc. But no one ever does that to me? Even my closest friends seem to have this idea that I have some sort of busy lifestyle and I’m not worth communicating with or asking to hang out, yet they are all supporting my ex and hanging out with him? I’m so confused why is it that my whole life people just never look out for me or ask if I’m doing okay? It’s so messed up because I’m always reaching out and putting my energy into friendships and today I just bought Christmas presents for them but it’s not even going to make any difference. My ex has all the support and is going out at weekends with them, people are asking him how he is but no one even bothers to check on me even though I’m going through a worse time since it was him that broke up with me, in a really horrible way.
I truly, truly feel unwanted, and no matter how much effort I put into current and new friendships, no one gives a sh*t. I’m just so done. There is no point in me being here. I give so much to others and I get nothing, not even to ask how I am or if I need company, despite me telling them the whole situation and that I literally NEED company. There is definitely something wrong with me / that I am doing wrong because no one wants to be around me and I just don’t see the point in existing to be honest.