I never realized how intense a traumatic panic attack can leave you. This same time last year I had what was the worst panic attack in my life I literally thought this was it I'm dying , and I was holding onto a secret at the time that I struggled with. That was me being gay. I feel like that forced me to come out. Well this year this week is a year that it happened and I'm very distressed. I'm depressed, I don't wanna be at work, I had a meltdown yesterday , I'm on Prozac and Ativan but it's just not helping. I'm gonna try and find a psych appointment because I know I need help I can't do this on my own. All I wanna do is cry all day. I know they say these feelings of the anniversary effect are normal and don't last long but damn they're powerful .