My first post!

[Molldoll14]

I've never done anything like this before. I am still coming to terms with the fact that I have depression. I have been diagnosed with Anxiety disorder and panic disorder since 2012 but my depression has been new since the last 6 months or so. I know that anxiety and depression typically go hand and hand but this is still very new to me. I seem to have been able to get my panic attacks under control. I just feel daily stress and anxiety from my job, family, relationships etc. which I know is pretty typical but some days I just don't want to get out of bed. I'll have plans to go to a concert that i've been excited about for months and if that particular day I'm in a 'bad mood' I'll end up skipping it. I look back and wish that I had just pushed myself to go but there's nothing I can do about it now. Today was a particularly bad day for me for some reason. I have been keeping up with going to therapy 2x a month, I take 30mg of Prozac daily, I meditate daily and exercise 5 days a week, but for whatever reason I am still sad and upset. I used to vent about all my daily stress and worries to my boyfriend but we just recently "took a break" because he has too much on his plate and we were doing long distance and it was too much for him right now. He says it's not permanent but it's still hard because he was my rock and now I feel like I don't have my person to vent to. His dad was just arrested and he has a really bad family life, he works 30 hours a week and is going to school full time. Also, we live 3 hours away from each other. He is graduating in 4 weeks and says that when he graduates we can be together again but I feel like that may not happen. My anxiety and depression have made me so codependent on him since we have been together almost 3 years on and off but I really want to start learning to be happy on my own so that I can be happy with someone else (hopefully him). I guess I am just wondering if anyone else has been in similar situations how they were able to cope with it and what maybe they suggest I should do as well.