Last week I was ill all week. I missed 3 or 4 days of work and I wrote a post about it. My chest and lungs have been working against me basically. After what finally seemed like a recovery from a hellish battle with a hundred symptoms I was ready to head back to work today.
I do maintanance, you know fixing machines and keeping the factory going. I work in a cold environment but barely do anything. I went out there and did my thing for a few minutes with my anxiety running all time high as I was having flashbacks of last week and how the cold air gave me this pneumonia like symptoms. I was scared shitless because I didn't want to go through that again. My body was also still just recovering from that and I felt rather weak. Then it hit me.
My lungs were burning and my breath was short. This didn't feel like a panic attack, or should I say just a panic attack. Why did the cold air trigger it? Why was I fatigued? I felt like I was walking in outter space, I could barely move as I made my way to the exit door. I didn't think I would make it but I did. This anxiety was different, my lungs felt tightened and on fire.
I talked to the boss man and he let me go home. Told me to come back tomorrow, but I know my body will take days or even weeks to fully recover. When he hired me he was told that I am a quitter by some assholes who don't get that I have Chronic Fatigue. They told him I have a tendency to leave work too soon and I wanted to shut them. I wanted to prove them wrong. I've been there 4 months now and I just wanted to save some money to go back to school. Then again I never wanted to be there in the 1st place. Factory work is very depressing to me. Maybe it's time to let go.
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It seems like you have complicated medical problem which requires a thorough review.
From experience, I cannot emphasize enough the value of talking to your manager about your (Chronic Fatigue) condition and health status. Managers are usually more willing to accommodate periods away from work if they can understand the condition and it's affects.
I have recently learned of the odd qualification of medical psychologist who could help you. The medical psychologist is the professional with the ability of diagnosing and treating diseases exhibiting psychological and physiological symptoms. They are trained in the way psychological parameters of a disease may affect the physical well-being of a person.
Apparently there are not many of them around, so ask your doctor for a referral if you think a discussion with one will help.
There are usually support groups around for various medical conditions which are a great help too. Making contact means that you have a shoulder to lean on and ways of learning to manage your health.
Guessing anxiety led to part of the other symptoms. My allergies and pain and crap and depression and everything get worse with anxiety. Yeah, it sounds like a depressing job. Maybe time to leave and find someone who gets it.
Yeah. Probably right. I think depression and burn out also played a role. You can't tell when it's day or night in there. All I'd do is daydream and talk to myself. Might just need a job where I interact with others. Thanks.
I'm really sorry your going through all of that. It must feel terrible to not be able to do your job. How long have you been working there. I understand everything you're going through. i suffer from anxiety and panic attacks and even though I'm in control most of the times we all have our moments of weakness. be strong and always remember... your as strong as you allow yourself to be. also read up on your condition. knowledge is power.
Thanks bro. I was there 4 months. I did okay until the cold weather came. My fibro got the better of me and I just crashed. My body just kind of shut down on me. I'm still healing. It will take at least 2 weeks to be back to normal, but life won't be the same. I would like to start my own business. Maybe something like barbering where I can control my own work schedule. Something in health sounds appealing as well. In the meantime I'll take the time to work on myself. Life is more than work after all.
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I feel like my life is going nowhere.
feeling abandoned and like an outsider in my family
Feeling like my head is going to explode
Feel like slitting my wrists
I feel like I'll never be happy at a job
