life

[kw41716]

it sucks to be anorexic , major depression, major anxiety , a mean step father , and friends that won’t talk to you ... and to be a beauty pageant supreme queen , everyone would never notice the struggle i’ve been through in the 19 years i’ve been here

[one-love]

I know your pain I have my good days and my bad days a lot of my anxiety attacks I thought were heart attacks in the beginning because of the physical symptoms I was always having (heart pounding, dizzy, impending doom feeling, breathing difficulty) but after years of having them and talking to doctors and therapists I realize now when I have them they are just anxiety attacks but they can be very scary for sure if you don't know what it is in the beginning. I hate taking RX meds too so it's a double edge sword, I feel like I trade one problem for another when I take the pills the doctors give me and all the side effects that come with them. To be honest I have been using medical marijuana for the last few years and I feel it really helps me and doesn't have near as many bad side effects. I know it might sound crazy but look into it and try a sativa strain it really helps with mood, anxiety and depression. But use a low does if you never tried it before

[AuntBea]

Just goes to show that depression / panic / anxiety can hit anyone. I have a nice job, nice house, well-educated, but many days can't pull myself out of bed. So you aren't alone. Not a freak or weirdo.

Maybe your friends won't talk because they just don't know what to say - sort of like I wouldn't know what to say to someone who has just been diagnosed with cancer. What would happen if you tried reaching out and saying "I have something I really need to talk to you about"?

[happyshadows]

Anxiety and depression can happen to everyone. We just think that it doesn't happen to some people because it's easy to look at someone beautiful and successful and think they have no reason to feel that way. Some feel it and think that being in your shoes would make it better. But they don't know what it's like to be in your shoes. We all have our own stories and things effect us all different. What effects us all the same is the knowledge that we all need someone. None of want to be alone. We all want to believe that what we do matters and that there is a purpose. Reflection on that is important. What do you do to make yourself feel good?? If pageants don't make you happy then what does? What do you do everyday that is JUST FOR YOU? It can seem simple. Even if it's just that you love books so everyday you spend an hour alone reading. Anything. You have to feel your soul. You deserve to be taken care of by yourself. And remember that you aren't alone. I know that people can't see how you feel or maybe you do tell someone and they can't understand. But there are people who can understand and be here for you. Sending you love.

[kw41716 in reply to happyshadows]

thank you ! i really needed that ☺️