FREEWRITE

[Starrlight]

I don’t have any more fight in me. I don’t know what’s wrong everything was fine and now I am having mean intrusive thoughts toward myself. I’m lookin at it logically and that really helps it seem better but still suffering persists I mean I’m not actually in deep trouble looking on ftom outside but why does it have to feel so painful inside? I don’t know maybe I’ll try to FREEWRITE. Anyone who wants to just start writing anything that comes up and we may realize something from that.

Blue sad rage

Every day turn your page

Do it again get through

Pretend you are happy

F$@!ing Sh&@

[Hidden]

That last one's my favorite!

Here are some:

Wishing for a quiet evening up there.

WTF!!

Brain, brain, go away, don't come back another day

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Help! I'm trapped in my brain!

Brain transplant, anyone? I'm sick of mine.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

😆

[Midori in reply to Hidden]

Nowt wrong with me that a full body transplant can't cure.....!

[Hidden in reply to Midori]

You got it!👍😂

[EndUser13]

😞 I wish I didn't understand... I'm sorry life is being difficult. "Maybe tomorrow" gets old, I hear you...

[Nothing_but_books]

Am I in deep trouble?

Hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hut hut hut hut

March March March hare

Hare there everywhere

Mad as I can be

Mad as me me me

It's raining it hurts

It's storming it hurts

Dehumidify this

Dehumidify that

What if I had a smiling cat

Up in a tree

Would I still be me?

[Starrlight in reply to Nothing_but_books]

Good stuff

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you! Maybe it helped, or maybe just a coincidence. I don't hurt nearly as much today. I slept too, mostly.

Thanks for this post. It's miracle stuff.

[Dolphin14]

Ocean Ocean

It's my potion

Send the stress with the waves

Take away my craze.

❤️🐬

[Starrlight in reply to Dolphin14]

That is awesome

[Dolphin14 in reply to Starrlight]

Hahahah

Soup who knew I had that hiding in there lol

❤️🐬

[Starrlight in reply to Dolphin14]

[Midori]

Some days are better than others, we all get those 'down' days. Wet dreary weather will get me every time, makes me want to shrivel up.

Sunny days I am more hopeful. Mixed days my mood is up and down like a yoyo.

Cheers, Midori

[Starrlight in reply to Midori]

Cheers, Mindoro!!!

[Willow2022]

Holding together at the seamsDarkness hangs on my shoulder

Sometimes smothering,

Sometimes whispering thoughts

Panic fills me

Where to run?

Forgot to breathe

Forgot to be mindful

Forgot what normal feels like

[Starrlight in reply to Willow2022]

((((((((((((Willow))))))))))) love your writing you are not alone in those thoughts

[Willow2022 in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you so much for starting this post Star. I don’t journal and didn’t realize just getting those few words out felt a bit freeing.

[Starrlight in reply to Willow2022]

I’m so proud of you!

[Hidden in reply to Willow2022]

The "forgot to breathe" strikes me. Isn’t it amazing how we "forget" to do this?My yoga teacher once said that this is why yoga is so good for us -- because it's amazing how often we "forget" to do this.

[Against_the_current]

Relate so much.

They say "slow down",

I don't know how

I'm in a free fall

"Fly", i don't know how

Wanting way too much

When my head is such

A hell

Well, I don't feel well

I don't think well

I've never been well

It's hard to maintain

Overdose on pain,

Nightmares every night,

Fight or flight

My soul in convulsion, just want to scream. But i'm numb and mute. Beast is chained.

Drank my blood and soul. I'm not allowed to hate them

Faded

Jaded

I hate it

Braindead

No end

I hate it

Come end it

I hate it

I hate it

Burn it down

To the ground

Upside down

"Fake a smile"

"You're so small"

"Take control"

"Give it all"

Just shut up

And listen

All those years i was okay with this bullshit and now i'm broken and you don't even know why.

See ya in hell

[Starrlight]

I feel so much pain too. I know I can’t feel your exact pain but I hear you. And you described it well. But why the “see you in hell”? We need to keep going somehow any way we can and end up in heaven is what I believe. Is your pain your hell? What do you mean see ya in hell?

[FantasyLife]

well well well look who it is says my anxy self(anxiety)

i roll my eyes and walk away

fell into a trap like a noob all over again

now lost a leg and its one leg race

no worry there's always a dummy leg

for a dummy like u says my brain

i just say one leg is all i need to walk

and start hopping, this numbs

laughs around me

imitators sarcasm around me

just me and my one-leg race

the air surrounds me nd

my younger self follows me

for the first time, i see her

with a giggled face i too get affected

now there is

no one to compare or

no one to blame n judge me

it's my turf now

just me and my one-leg race

when i came out to peep

everybody`s in their one-leg race

i laugh and hopp

then wat was it all for heh

i see a familiar face stumbling n hopping

woah its my anxy self

i say

hey anxy!! get a grip now

coz I am a long way gone

keep up if u can tho yet

see ya later in ur case never

u stupid clown