Hey guys. I have a depressive disorder, I'm 19 and I go to university. Well I'm transferring unis haha it's quite confusing. I recently got out of the hospital after two suicide attempts. I just wondered what keeps you guys motivated, to do daily tasks or to just live. Sometimes I get sparks of motivation , but they are almost manic and impulsive and I just want to live a better life, I just don't know where to start.