Self loathing

[OhMsBeliever]

I hate myself because I tell myself to do things and I never do them. I think that I'm an idiot and that I'm so stupid. I hate myself so much because of this. I try to control it but I end up in the situations that I don't want to be in and hate myself over and over for it. I don't know my own self worth and I just want to die

[Macen]

Hey friend, don't be too hard on yourself. As my uncle likes to say, "there's plenty of people in the world who will throw poop at you, you don't have to be one of them" Venting can be good, but recognize many of these thoughts you're having just aren't true.

It's ok to fail sometimes -- a lot of times even. You have a mental illness, don't hold yourself up to an impossible standard. I'm no stranger to failed expectations, but I've found beating myself up over them doesn't help much.

Besides, the only true failure is to stop trying.

Get up, go on a walk, and listen to some uplifting music is my suggestion. Even if you have to force yourself out of your room. Make sure you eat well and take care of yourself too. It will help you feel better and strengthen your resolve.

Let me know if you want to talk, I'm free pretty much all day Sunday. I don't want you to feel bad about yourself. You're awesome! I don't even know you and I know you're awesome!

Take care, and think positive. (:

[OhMsBeliever in reply to Macen]

Thank you!

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I can relate so much to this, you are not alone.

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Hi what sort of things do you tell yourself to do? Why don't you do them? What do you mean you find yourself in situations you hate being in? Can you clarify this a bit more please.

We all do things we know aren't good for us or others. Every day I tell myself to eat more healthily then I go out and buy chocolate and cake. I need urgently to clean my home but instead come in here or go out socialising. The list is endless. It doesn't mean you are an idiot or that you are stupid - it just means you are human like the rest of us. x