And it has gotten me again...

[1dayiwontfeelthisway]

Up until a few months ago I was doing well. Had a rough day here and there but bounced back with no problem.

Mid July to the beginning of August I had to undergo a number of tests and procedures because a mass was found in my breast. And so it began... I'm ok no cancer but that sent me spiraling. I got my legs back under me and my father in law died and I watched my husband try to save him using cpr. Again I manage to cling... And 3 weeks ago I was in a car wreck. So now I'm dealing with injuries and my anxiety is through the roof. I can't come back from this.

I'm calling my dr Monday to make an appointment asap. I hate the thought of needing medication again after being off them for over 5 years but...I don't have a choice. I also need to find someone to talk to about everything...the problem is time. Between work and dr appointments from the car wreck there is none.

The panic attacks are almost daily and are crippling. I find myself crying over nothing. I can't eat I've got no appetite.

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This site is perfect if you're looking for someone to talk... most of us are going through similar things

[1dayiwontfeelthisway in reply to Hidden]

Thank you this is just what I need to know I'm not totally alone

[Loki1018]

So I understand exactly what your going through sims one was in January of this year 19 days into the new year and I also have injuries and it manifested my anxiety between all my doctors appointment including physical therapy, they docs they send you out to see, my psychiatrist, therapist and my full time job it's overwhelming and has in a spiral or moods and emotions beside my diagnosis of my mental state. I'm very new to my mental issues and haven't gotten a handle of it and started meds which I hate having to be on I'm not one to run to medication for anything I have to be really sick or in pain they only one I take religiously is my birth control also I'm 3-4 years cancer free I had cervical cancer and I was only 24-25years old and had to keep my composure because my mom couldn't handle it so I had to be the rock so that she felt as though I was ok and that everything would turn out ok which it did but I never really got a chance to process any of my emotions of feelings because I had to maintain my cool so people around me weren't falling apart

[1dayiwontfeelthisway in reply to Loki1018]

You are so young and so strong. I guess you can't see it because you are living it.

I think sometimes we/others expect us to not crumble when presented with these life changing situations.

One day at a time we can do this.