Struggling

[Amandad22]

Hi, I am fighting depression, emotional shock, anxiety, OCD and severe stresses. Over the last 9 days, the worst days of my life, I stopped eating. Barely drinking any water at all. Ended up in the hospital for that and an unrelated issue. My stress I've been experiencing over the last few months and the insane amount I've been put through in the last week and a half seems to have caused an ulcer. I, a 5'10" female, usually 150lbs just went down to um see 120lbs in a week. All i want to do is hide and cry. I've thought of suicide daily, hourly.... My kids are the only reason I'm still here today. I need help. For me, for my kids. I've lost everything but them over the last few months. And we've been through so much. I can't even remember the last time I had a genuine smile. I know I've been depressed for 15+ years, but never thought it would get so bad. I hit rock bottom. And my kids deserve better. Maybe I just need someone to talk to.... I don't know. But I feel like I'm past the end of my rope.

[Loveydovey0519 Ambassador]

Hey there Amanda, I am very sorry to hear you're going through such a rough patch right now. Do you take any medicine, or go to any counseling for how you are feeling? I know sometimes just talking to someone can make the world of difference as well. If you ever need or want to talk I'd be more than happy to, along with a lot of other members here. Try not to give up and keep pushing forward.

[K1mm3r]

Hi Amanda. I feel your pain. Keep pushing through. It feels like an impossible feat but you are worth it and your kids need you. It will get easier. I still have weeks and months that feel like I'm drowning, but they are getting better. Sending you love.