Rome

[Loki1018]

One day we will be there "Rome wasn't built in one day" nor can we expect to be ok in just one day

[SadNurse32]

You are absolutely right!

[Loki1018]

Hey are you a nurse ? I know stupid question since that's your user name but I'm hopefully waiting to see if I get accepted to the nursing program this up coming year. Applied for the second time and it will be my second career but they way I'm at right now I'm not so sure I'll be able to handle schooling again I know it's a lot of dedication especially because I work full time as a surgical tech but I work in L&D so I'm also an Obstetrics tech. How are you dealing with what's going on with you and still being able to work and provide the best care for patients when I don't know what your going through and not trying to assume or insult and not let it affect you at your job. Right now my job is one of my triggers for me not what I do but mostly my director who makes it hell because she is such a b**ch and talks so condescending to me and sometimes even very ignorantly where I feel she needs to get punched in her face just get some respect

[SadNurse32 in reply to Loki1018]

Well yes I'm a nurse lol. But nursing school is what triggered and ultimately made me fully see my conditions ended up being sent to get meds during my clinical class. So nursing school itself was extremely stressful mainly because of the same reason your job is your trigger and then the stresses of perfect itself because I have mild OCD. Now my job itself actually helps me escape my illness unless its an extremely high anxiety situation (i.e. death) then people can see my anxiety but I do handle it professional as I've been told. Its everything else that effects me once i come home even the thought i what i could have done for a patient that i didnt do, which i have changed the part of nursing i work in for that reason (school nurse now). So it just depends on how bad your situation is on how you will handle it. And no offense was taken by your question btw

[HearYou]

Rome was built on ruins...what ruins are you settling in order to become a Rome?

[Loki1018]

I understand because once I get into the OR everything else fades away and my only dedication is to my patients I deal with the pregnant mom and the unborn chilled I seem to thrive under pressure depending on what it is but yeah once I leave work it all then comes back and hits me hard because I don't have a distraction. I do trying to leave my personal life and business behind once I go through those doors but some of my staff can trigger it by being lazy and I hate slackers because I work very hard but some of my nurses make me feel like I'm there personal servant or something when they are capable of doing the simplest thing like go look for the damn monitors the toco and ultrasound that you use and misplaced because you want to move them around when each room has a pair which shouldn't be taken out of and then you want me to go looking for them and at times I go and makes sure the cables are cleaned and each room has a set but by the next day they are all over the place. And my unit is an all in one post partum, L&D, nursery and special care nursery which is a small nicu since we are a level 2 no babies really can be treated properly under 32 were but under certain circumstances we've had to deal with it get them stable and then they get transferred and I'm all over that unit helping out in all the units there and fetching shyt like in their little b***h I hate that. I don't have one patient that only assigned to me all of them are my patients unlike some nurses won't even help out each other I get responses like that's not my patient when they can easily just do a quick favor like change an IV bag when I can't find the nurse assigned or if they are on break and someone can do a simple job as like giving pain meds so the patient ends up waiting until their nurse comes to take care of them. I work with 2 different set of nurse groups and the one I work with on our weekend on are really the team players they help each other and are what I consider the A team the other group triggers my anxiety and my moods such as the nasty ones like agitation and anger

[Loki1018]

My relationship for one it's on a rough patch especially when we've had talks about having to split up and are lease is up and we actually had to have a sit down to see if we wanted to renew it and continue to be with each other my bf has been putting up with me and my anxiety my depression and bipolar and unstable moods for a while it's taken a toll on him as well as my job it's been affected, and other relationships with other people such as my step kids my bf's two daughters who aren't at any fault but are wondering why I'm not as outgoing as I was before , why have I distanced myself from them, at times I just stay in my room when they are here but I let them know they have nothing to do with any of this they just don't understand what I'm dealing with and I'm trying to get better so I can be like how they knew me at first but it's hard when your depressed and have no motivation or joy to do anything and my moods are all over the place