In Colorado, aad, alone, sleepless...

[LeiaRae]

Its always late at night when the weight falls heavy on my chest and I can't sleep with my lungs laden and my head full. My eyes are fluttering and I'm exhausted yet I fight it because I have a thought unfinished and I cannot leave a thing undone or I feel failure setting in. I speak my frustration out loud and get more angry when I realize how alone and lonely I am.

[HearYou]

Hello, It's the middle of the night here and read your post twice. Very poetic, but sometimes I haven't a clue in deciphering such posts. Would you let us know what you are needing or how we can help if you are reaching out?

[LeiaRae in reply to HearYou]

I just wonder, if I can accurately describe how I feel, if my words might find someone. Someone else that feels those feelings. Then perhaps, I won't be so alone. And then perhaps, I'll sleep.

[Pacobusta1970 in reply to LeiaRae]

What are your feelings like.

I have been dealing w/anxiety and panic attacks since year 2000

I’m on paxyl 40 mm ever since

I was doing just fine until my wife and i got separated about a month ago.

So i know how you are feeling, i know what is like to feel like shit

[CapitalT]

I feel for you, mine is the opposite, go to bed hopeful, get up trying to be positive, then anxiety kicks in, often followed by depression and despair.

We're told it's temporary and we can control it and improve, but it IS hard.

Little steps is the way apparently.

Sharing helps realise we're not alone with these feelings and together we can help each other understand things and move forward.

Thank you for posting and sharing.

Positive vibes coming your way.

[CapitalT]

Morning

[Mjshells]

I can absolutely relate, that is a nightly occurrence with me as well for quite some time now. Every night when im trying to get to sleep it's like all the stresses and worries from the day that I've been able to put off thinking about just bombard me and before/without my sleep med it takes a very long time to actually get to sleep. It's like my body is tired and wants to rest, but i can't shut my brain off. Have you thought about getting on some sleep meds from a doctor or maybe over the counter? I definitely have the lonely and/or alone feeling too

[Hidden]

Hello, it is past midnight where I am and I am reading posts here hoping to find someone, in some corner of the world, who will understand me. I came across your post and I want to let you know, I am thinking about you and I am wishing you well. I have/had (not sure if its still there) depression for many years. It destroyed my relationship. I was supposed to get married last month but my fiance walked away. He couldn't handle my sadness. Now I find myself lying in bed with this sick feeling of loneliness. Sometimes I feel like I can't go on. but I do. I cry, but i fall asleep. I wake up. Some days are better. I feel happy. Some days I feel blue for no reason. I feel like I am the only one in the wide wide world.

So I know what it feels like to have someone say that they care. I don't know you, but I feel your sorrow. You are not alone.