Depression with life

[Mfmahone2015]

I was just diagnosed today with severe depression and it’s been really aggressive since I’ve returned to school. I’m suffocating those who care about me I feel because I rely on them too much and it’s unhealthy. But they’re all I have that’s positive in my life and bring me happiness. I don’t mean to be a pain to people but I worry Day to day about the wellbeing of everyone around me. I feel like the world is on my shoulders and everyone has high expectations for me because of the person I am. I feel isolated and alone at times throughout the day even when those around me are interacting. I want to be happy but see no light at the end of this tunnel I’m going through. I feel overwhelmed and overbearing to those who love me and it kills me because I feel like I push them to the edge. When they reach a point I feel as if they’ll all disappear and I’ll be alone. I never thought I’d be diagnosed as depressed which is terrifying to me I just don’t know how I can fix it without everything coming down and ruining relationships with those around me.

[meesteves]

I am the same way, although I withdraw into myself to avoid being a burden. Most people do not likely know what i go through mentally. I literally signed into here, because I can't find free clinics around me, and I am feeling particularly cruddy tonight.... I have never been diagnosed but I am assuming I fit the mold.

One thing that has helped me is exploring on your own. Make experiences for yourself. Getting a dog really helped too. Unfortunately neither has monumentally changed things, every little bit helps though.

[meesteves]

It is kind of remarkable the first post I see, when I signed up, is this one. And it is someone else describing what I go through almost word for word......

[jennaturtle]

Wow. This is so me. I definitely understand what you're going through. I haven't been diagnosed with anything yet, but I know that it is depression. Just reading your post. I feel your pain. I'm glad I read this. Don't worry you are not alone!!!!!!!!

[Lynl]

I do this too , to the point of my doctors are sick of me calling all the time , I have health anxiety and I drive people to the point where I'm afraid they don't want to be around me. They say they love me and they do want to help , but I'm trying to do the same thing. I like yo go have fun like everyone else , but at the same time I'm dealing with this crap . I'm praying for you that this feeling will disappear for us both and everyone else too